Sadly ..my uncle was admitted into an institution because he had a psychotic break sometime this week...
And his last coherent words to me was to do my best...
It was then I realized..its stupid to live in fear and to stop being afraid of what people think. Because I acrewed up so terribly at my job and everyone I worked with is on to bigger and better things..id be afraid to walk past that shop..for fear they'd ask me, " so what are you doing now?" ( when I had set back after set back. Still found no job, got kicked out of school, still don't have my license.. ) I was afraid of being seen as a failure.
But after my uncle, who was a polished man-- worked for the CDC, had a psychotic break...it taught me ..not to live in fear so much...because if the same thing happened to me...
I wouldn't remember all the embarrassing moments anyway...
So its better to live..
I have to learn not to ruminate.
And his last coherent words to me was to do my best...
It was then I realized..its stupid to live in fear and to stop being afraid of what people think. Because I acrewed up so terribly at my job and everyone I worked with is on to bigger and better things..id be afraid to walk past that shop..for fear they'd ask me, " so what are you doing now?" ( when I had set back after set back. Still found no job, got kicked out of school, still don't have my license.. ) I was afraid of being seen as a failure.
But after my uncle, who was a polished man-- worked for the CDC, had a psychotic break...it taught me ..not to live in fear so much...because if the same thing happened to me...
I wouldn't remember all the embarrassing moments anyway...
So its better to live..
I have to learn not to ruminate.