I am feeling more positive everyday, and I feel closer to God all the time.
When I read my old entry of last year, I cannot believe just how bad I felt, those times seem so far away now. Granted I still feel shaky in my faith..... like I have started over and need constant reminders to keep me on the right path..... but I know that God is guiding me and is leading the way now..... I never had that certainty before and I love that feeling!
I wonder if it is becoming a full time carer for a family member that is the root of my lightness of spirit? To feel that I am useful and that I am helping someone in need? Or maybe the easing of so much stress that has allowed me to renew my walk with God and at last be able to concentrate more of my time to Him and not to having to be in an environment that was becoming harmful to my mental health!
I definitely feel God working within me and through me now..... and I have not felt that for months. I had missed that feeling of utter completeness that only being fully immersed in His love can give.
I only pray that this feeling lasts and that I am well on my way back to the strength of faith I once took for granted.
I shall pray for that
When I read my old entry of last year, I cannot believe just how bad I felt, those times seem so far away now. Granted I still feel shaky in my faith..... like I have started over and need constant reminders to keep me on the right path..... but I know that God is guiding me and is leading the way now..... I never had that certainty before and I love that feeling!
I wonder if it is becoming a full time carer for a family member that is the root of my lightness of spirit? To feel that I am useful and that I am helping someone in need? Or maybe the easing of so much stress that has allowed me to renew my walk with God and at last be able to concentrate more of my time to Him and not to having to be in an environment that was becoming harmful to my mental health!
I definitely feel God working within me and through me now..... and I have not felt that for months. I had missed that feeling of utter completeness that only being fully immersed in His love can give.
I only pray that this feeling lasts and that I am well on my way back to the strength of faith I once took for granted.
I shall pray for that
