Today is one of those days where I just feel like crying for no specific reason.
I think a lot of it has to do with me missing being up at school. I've been home for about a month now, and at first, I was pretty much enjoying my solitude and time to myself, but now I'm just feeling antsy and lonely. I miss my friends a ton, and I don't have that many high school friends here at home that I'm close to anymore. I do work a lot, which helps in some respects, but it also makes me tired and cranky to be up early and not get as much sleep.
Also, I don't have my license yet, and though I've been driving on and off for almost three years now, this summer I've decided to really try and get my license, but I'm just not naturally good at driving so it makes it a very frustrating process. I hate feeling stupid and slow when it comes to driving, and I hate my mom telling me I'm doing everything wrong. I've gone to a driving instructor twice, and when I'm with him, I start to feel a little more confident, but when I drive with my mom or dad, I wind up just feeling as incompetent and frustrated as before.
I think a little of it also has to do with my recent weight gain. I put on about ten pounds this year, and while I really want to work to lose some weight, motivating myself to exercise is exhausting, and eating healthy is difficult, and I always wind up being hungry, which makes me cranky.
I guess I'm not exactly looking for advice or answers - I just needed to get that all out. It just sucks to feel so down in the dumps right now :[
I think a lot of it has to do with me missing being up at school. I've been home for about a month now, and at first, I was pretty much enjoying my solitude and time to myself, but now I'm just feeling antsy and lonely. I miss my friends a ton, and I don't have that many high school friends here at home that I'm close to anymore. I do work a lot, which helps in some respects, but it also makes me tired and cranky to be up early and not get as much sleep.
Also, I don't have my license yet, and though I've been driving on and off for almost three years now, this summer I've decided to really try and get my license, but I'm just not naturally good at driving so it makes it a very frustrating process. I hate feeling stupid and slow when it comes to driving, and I hate my mom telling me I'm doing everything wrong. I've gone to a driving instructor twice, and when I'm with him, I start to feel a little more confident, but when I drive with my mom or dad, I wind up just feeling as incompetent and frustrated as before.
I think a little of it also has to do with my recent weight gain. I put on about ten pounds this year, and while I really want to work to lose some weight, motivating myself to exercise is exhausting, and eating healthy is difficult, and I always wind up being hungry, which makes me cranky.
I guess I'm not exactly looking for advice or answers - I just needed to get that all out. It just sucks to feel so down in the dumps right now :[
