i feel alone bc i feel like every one dont want to do anything with me but only going to church or what every is satan tryign to get them away from me or is god telling them let her be so she can change but i dont want to be alone i want to have fun and i want a boy friends who is a christain ! i cant find any one up here i pray day in and day out for a nice man to come my way and that wont hit me or try to kill me .. thats all i want to do is have a nice happy life with god by my side with jesus and my family i always dream of on the other side so i can life my life . is that selfish of me to hope and dream for ? is that to much to ask for why cant i be selfish for onces i uselie put people befor me i always got every one what they need frist befor me like my dad befor i get on line i always ask '' daddy do u need anything ? '' he always siad no but then he always ask for it at the end so i always go get it but its to much stress ... for a 22 year old back then i was 18-21 as well but still ....
