YAWN........Eating a late lunch, feet hurt, back hurts, dang gallstones affecting my new job...and the woman who on Hospice was getting on my nerves I barely walked in the doors and she was telling me what to do I was whoa let me put my bag up at least. The lady had wanted to curl her hair with old time curlers and I didn't know how to do it...she what do you know how to do....I was ugh OK I've not cooked, wash towels, fix your bed, sponged bathe, help you get dressed, etc....anyway I had 2 lady friends one 36 she told me she had something going on with Lee but that Lee came on too strong and wanted something serious too fast and so that ended...and why do I torture myself by texting Lee knowing she not responding to them...I dunno. My other friend said it easy for folks to say "get over it already" that she devoted herself to someone for 10 years and it was always "we're just friends" but the ACTIONS showed differently like being mislead I guess. Wish I didn't feel like texting Lee, or thinking of her, or thinking and wondering why she doesn't care for me....when I've done nothing wrong but care for her....she a TAKER I'm the giver so my mind knows to move on and it not right...but my soul doesn't let go....ugh...
