The title sums up what we're supposed to do automatically as Christians but it's not easy. God has blessed me greatly and is showing me the path I should take in this life and yet fear is the instinctive reaction. In church this morning, I'd stand to praise and sing to God but my body would literally tense up. I would be plagued by a vague sense of anxiety coupled with physical tension. I stopped singing and just sat in my pew and prayed. I confessed my weaknesses and habits and I felt peace. I thank God for that peace but I hate that these have become my standard responses when I honestly have nothing to fear.
I have struggled with various degrees of depression for a long time. As my issues with anger finally started to fade the depression only got worse and the anger never truly faded either. I was a bit sheltered growing up and I never learned how to strong. I honestly didn't want to learn for a while; I wanted to simply stay young and carefree. Sadly, time is cruel and waits for no man regardless of how prepared we might be.
I'm 25 years old and only now am a I truly learning to take care of myself and, even more so, I'm learning how to trust God and follow His plans. I want to be confident and faithful. I want to learn how to loose my instincts of fear and doubt. God is blessing me greatly and leading me down a path that corresponds with my deepest passions. I honestly pray that I will learn how to properly let those passions shine as a man of God.
I also wanted to let this feelings, concerns and prayers be known. I want to learn to get anything negative out of my system in a safe way. I do confess things but mostly to my mother who, honestly, doesn't always know how to deal with it. It's not fair for me to expect her to either, she's just as human as I am. Thus, I'm going to try to use this blog to vent my feelings and struggles in a very public but hopefully safe and supportive place.
"Dear Father,
Bless this blog and may it be a healthy thing for me. May I learn to let trust and faith be my first instincts in the place of fear and anxiety. May this year be a good and fruitful one and may I greet is as an adventure rather than something to dread.
"
I have struggled with various degrees of depression for a long time. As my issues with anger finally started to fade the depression only got worse and the anger never truly faded either. I was a bit sheltered growing up and I never learned how to strong. I honestly didn't want to learn for a while; I wanted to simply stay young and carefree. Sadly, time is cruel and waits for no man regardless of how prepared we might be.
I'm 25 years old and only now am a I truly learning to take care of myself and, even more so, I'm learning how to trust God and follow His plans. I want to be confident and faithful. I want to learn how to loose my instincts of fear and doubt. God is blessing me greatly and leading me down a path that corresponds with my deepest passions. I honestly pray that I will learn how to properly let those passions shine as a man of God.
I also wanted to let this feelings, concerns and prayers be known. I want to learn to get anything negative out of my system in a safe way. I do confess things but mostly to my mother who, honestly, doesn't always know how to deal with it. It's not fair for me to expect her to either, she's just as human as I am. Thus, I'm going to try to use this blog to vent my feelings and struggles in a very public but hopefully safe and supportive place.
"Dear Father,
Bless this blog and may it be a healthy thing for me. May I learn to let trust and faith be my first instincts in the place of fear and anxiety. May this year be a good and fruitful one and may I greet is as an adventure rather than something to dread.
"
