Everything will be ok

I am anxious right now... i've been experiencing a lot of anxiety for a while. My son is about to start first grade and I feel sad in a way. I feel like he's growing farther away from me in a way. I guess that's normal. All day long I think about how my mission in raising my kids is to raise them with few regrets, to try my best to raise them right with a good balance of affirmation, encouragement, discipline and ambition... anyways, i can't help but meditate on how I fail... but i also know that all I can do is try to learn from my mistakes and do better next time and hopefully the mistakes grower to be fewer and farther between. I worry about how they'll turn out, how they'll esteem life and themselves and can't help but know that I have a huge impact on how that will turn out for them... either they will have a lot of negative feelings and beliefs, or they approach life confident and mostly care free. And how my actions are day to day effects that, and I have to admit, I have a lot of bad days, I have my own issues to deal with and it's a challenge every single day. But I have to rise above, because kids don't understand it when you ignore them or talk rudely to them, that it has everything to do with you and little to do with them. They internalize things... this worries me, I have to succeed, and at the same time I fall short and have to rely on someone bigger and more able then me... to entrust the outcome of their lives in his handgs, that he'll make up for what I the failures that I make that are inevitable. I try and try again... and pray and try some more... but I have to trust that he will provide what I fail to and that he'll make up for what I can't.