For many years I turned off my heart. It was necessary for my own survival. I lived a shallow life and made the best of what I had. I had made my bed and was going to lie in it. Things changed and my life was turned upside down. In the process of healing my heartbreak and loss of my marriage I once again found my heart. With the help of counselling, family, friends, and of course God, I have been able to enter the still, deep waters of my soul again. In this process I have learned that the waters are not always still and they go deeper than my dreams. They at times overwhelm me, threatening to drown me. We all ask why this path? We all need love and support. See the beauty in the humanity. God made us this way.
The truth. Most people don't like the truth. It is raw and hard to digest. When you sit down and take a hard look at your life and the truth that is there, yes there are blessings, but there are those thing we don't like to face as well. We know the Lord's truth, but realizing it in our own lives is much more difficult than we like to believe. Ugly as the truth is, it never changes the fact that it is true. In this world there is abuse, neglect, lose, hurt. Hiding the reality of them does not make them go away. Repeating scripture to them does not make them go away. Nothing does. We often offer the Holy Word to people who express their pain and that can be good. But I find it, personally, cold and almost robotic. If I open my soul and let you look inside, please, please, just love me. I know the well meaning, loving hearts behind the regurgitation of scripture, but it is not a replacement for the love inside another human being. The love the Lord has placed in you.
This did not go where I thought it would, but I think it went where it needed to go. You, reader, have seen a corner of my soul. I fear to open myself wide for the depths of what lies beneath. Like a thousand galaxies spiralling out forever. I wonder if I am alone in that?
Rich blessing and much love to you.
The truth. Most people don't like the truth. It is raw and hard to digest. When you sit down and take a hard look at your life and the truth that is there, yes there are blessings, but there are those thing we don't like to face as well. We know the Lord's truth, but realizing it in our own lives is much more difficult than we like to believe. Ugly as the truth is, it never changes the fact that it is true. In this world there is abuse, neglect, lose, hurt. Hiding the reality of them does not make them go away. Repeating scripture to them does not make them go away. Nothing does. We often offer the Holy Word to people who express their pain and that can be good. But I find it, personally, cold and almost robotic. If I open my soul and let you look inside, please, please, just love me. I know the well meaning, loving hearts behind the regurgitation of scripture, but it is not a replacement for the love inside another human being. The love the Lord has placed in you.
This did not go where I thought it would, but I think it went where it needed to go. You, reader, have seen a corner of my soul. I fear to open myself wide for the depths of what lies beneath. Like a thousand galaxies spiralling out forever. I wonder if I am alone in that?
Rich blessing and much love to you.
