S: And now she sleeps eternally. My companion through a difficult change, I was her protector, and I failed her, I failed her horrendously. Viciously destroyed, gone, forever. RIP: April 18, 2008
VS: Almost 10 years now, she will have been gone, destroyed by the cells of her own body. No more 'fridge-runs' and stair-step chats, only a solemn gravestone, to which I have yet to bring myself to, in all these years. Pain and agony is what she died with, again, me failing to be there, of any comfort, and she's gone, forever. RIP: November 16, 1998
CT: My friend, like a brother, since we were just kids, gone, forever, regrets fill the void and the time I could have occupied to extend my gratitude to him for being such a good friend, a protector of any woman he encountered, for seeking vengeance, even momentary, for that day for me, and a good man, gone, forever. RIP: April 16, 2008
A.H.G: And then there's her...I was there for that. I was there for the entirety, and it's completely my fault that she was lost to this cause. Senselessness and zeal at potential overrode what was right, what should have been done, and not only is she gone forever, she never had a fighting chance to begin with. I love, though I never knew, I knew all too well. Who was she? I know who she was, not what she may have been, but even still, she is lost, brutally, lost, helpless with absolutely no chance, gone, forever. RIP: August 16, 2001
Satan trying, God seemingly willing, they are being taken from me as well. Slowly, but they are. Job endured loss, trials, and the like. I am not Job. I am not that strong, I am done being strong. "God will not give you more than you can handle?" Yeah, right. I cry out, with no reply, silence which could shatter the most deafened eardrums, there is nothing. Everything is a circle. The more I love, the more I lose. It is not better to have loved and to have lost, for the pain in the loss is nothing any amount of healing can fix.
Rebuke by the Shepard, what is a sheep to do but wander to the wolves? With no guidance, and a separation from the flock, it wanders alone and is devoured.
