eh pt.2 (September 7, 2005)

So much and so little at one time. There is so much I could talk about, and so much more on my heart and mind, but there is really no point in even uttering a word. I know how it always ends, the same and pain-filled. My faith has grown weaker and I am struggling. I desire to back in the place that I was with God, the closeness and the burning within for Him, but somehow, someway, I have drifted and don't know where I went wrong or even how to get back. I know the love is still there from God, but not as it used to be, and this is my fault. I am tired of failing, others and myself and most of all, My God.