Doing whats right does not mean, whats right in the world, it means honoring God. I owner God by having a relationship with him. I talk to him everyday, He makes all my decisions for me, because I talk to him about all things. I have the choice. I don't have to listen to him. However, I know what happens when I don't.
Is it better to be right or happy, or with God.
I have chosen God. Recently I have had an unusual upheaval of personal impact. I lost a father, and I lost a girl that I might have married in the right circumstances. I lost both these people to satan.
Satan's interments were or became more important to these people then I did. I am of no importance because they become big shots in the world.
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I know this girl loved me. I saw it. It was a real love, like a genuine first love. I saw it in her eyes, I could see the brokeness, She was scared because she was afraid I didn't like her when she loved me. I saw it.!
After or in the time period I could not respond to her, she began to associate with a local sociopath that all the girls like. Soon she was coming to meetings with him, acting like she was just giving rides. During this time, she continued, or attempted to say hello to me, to see if I would talk to her. I would not. PTSD break down problems!..
Finally I realized they were seeing each other. They would fake it in the meetings like they were not.
I was horrified that they would do this in front of me..
Talking to God, I finally left that fellowship and never came back...
I saw this girl today in her car. I glanced at her, I saw she was on a cell phone and would not look in my direction. I thought to myself, " Your not looking in Gods direction". God is in me, if you reject me, could you also be rejecting God. What about the love she had for me. Did that count for something!, I guess not.
After being on my knees for a month on this subject, God has let me know, that since I talked to him, Im in the free and clear. He has made it clear that these are satanic people, and to stay clear of them for good...
Its all so confusing. Yet, I do not feel in the wrong. I am happy that I took it all to God. God told me its OK for me to make mistakes. That I have the right to make a thousand mistakes, flopping all over the place like a land flounder. Anyone else have a problem with it, they need to talk to him.
I was in love with this girl. I don't feel it anymore. I do feel like it was a horrible missed opportunity. However, God is patiently showing me that in reality there was no opportunity. These people are evil. I will never see them again!..
I guess that is OK with me.. I will trust God that he will bring me decent people..
I am getting stronger, and those that are not suppose to be around me shed away.
I am the nicest person you have ever met if I trust you. If you are deceptive, you will get no where. There is no excuse for someone not to get to know me if they want to...
Is it better to be right or happy, or with God.
I have chosen God. Recently I have had an unusual upheaval of personal impact. I lost a father, and I lost a girl that I might have married in the right circumstances. I lost both these people to satan.
Satan's interments were or became more important to these people then I did. I am of no importance because they become big shots in the world.
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I know this girl loved me. I saw it. It was a real love, like a genuine first love. I saw it in her eyes, I could see the brokeness, She was scared because she was afraid I didn't like her when she loved me. I saw it.!
After or in the time period I could not respond to her, she began to associate with a local sociopath that all the girls like. Soon she was coming to meetings with him, acting like she was just giving rides. During this time, she continued, or attempted to say hello to me, to see if I would talk to her. I would not. PTSD break down problems!..
Finally I realized they were seeing each other. They would fake it in the meetings like they were not.
I was horrified that they would do this in front of me..
Talking to God, I finally left that fellowship and never came back...
I saw this girl today in her car. I glanced at her, I saw she was on a cell phone and would not look in my direction. I thought to myself, " Your not looking in Gods direction". God is in me, if you reject me, could you also be rejecting God. What about the love she had for me. Did that count for something!, I guess not.
After being on my knees for a month on this subject, God has let me know, that since I talked to him, Im in the free and clear. He has made it clear that these are satanic people, and to stay clear of them for good...
Its all so confusing. Yet, I do not feel in the wrong. I am happy that I took it all to God. God told me its OK for me to make mistakes. That I have the right to make a thousand mistakes, flopping all over the place like a land flounder. Anyone else have a problem with it, they need to talk to him.
I was in love with this girl. I don't feel it anymore. I do feel like it was a horrible missed opportunity. However, God is patiently showing me that in reality there was no opportunity. These people are evil. I will never see them again!..
I guess that is OK with me.. I will trust God that he will bring me decent people..
I am getting stronger, and those that are not suppose to be around me shed away.
I am the nicest person you have ever met if I trust you. If you are deceptive, you will get no where. There is no excuse for someone not to get to know me if they want to...
