This was a piece I wrote years ago when reflecting on my depression. At the time, I wasn't depressed anymore but I was still remembering vividly the dark state I was in.
It was the most read thing on my MySpace blog, and I think I was getting like 3000 views a day after I wrote it. I never gave it a title.
Thanks be to Jesus Christ my savior that I am here today to make posts and love others!
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Walking the thin line, careful not to fall
So many years…
Fires on every side, death and destruction
The fire is burning behind be now
I move faster and faster to escape
It's too late, it has caught me
I fall
I fall
I fall
The landing is painful
Who am I?
What is this place?
What have I become?
I don't want this life anymore
This is not me
My life has been taken,
My soul,
My hopes,
My dreams,
My love
The world is strange
Who am I?
What am I saying?
I hurt my love, I hurt myself
I cannot see or hear what is going on
What did I do?
I don't even know what I'm saying anymore
I don't know who is in the mirror
What happened?
It's too late for me
I have nothing here anymore
I want to leave
I want to end the pain
My head will not stop spinning
My stomach will not stop stinging
The world will not stop spinning
I cannot see
Darkness is my home,
Darkness is my mind
Darkness is my sight
Darkness is my friend now
I cannot live in this world
I cannot put the pieces together
There are too many pieces
Just too many
What is this I'm looking at?
I cannot find happiness anymore
I cannot seem to read
I cannot seem to care anymore
I forget myself, I forget everyone else
It would be better if I ended it
There is no hope
The pain is too great
There is no cure
Pain is my world
Darkness is my mind
I am broken
So, so broken
End it
End it now
No one cares
What will it be?
Will it be my friend the blade?
It will be good
It will take the pain away
Make it quick, no looking back
I need it
Will it be the bullet?
Pick the one that will be mine
Look at it
It will end the pain, the darkness
Kiss it goodnight before you die
Don't cry
It will be over soon
It was the most read thing on my MySpace blog, and I think I was getting like 3000 views a day after I wrote it. I never gave it a title.
Thanks be to Jesus Christ my savior that I am here today to make posts and love others!
___________________________________
Walking the thin line, careful not to fall
So many years…
Fires on every side, death and destruction
The fire is burning behind be now
I move faster and faster to escape
It's too late, it has caught me
I fall
I fall
I fall
The landing is painful
Who am I?
What is this place?
What have I become?
I don't want this life anymore
This is not me
My life has been taken,
My soul,
My hopes,
My dreams,
My love
The world is strange
Who am I?
What am I saying?
I hurt my love, I hurt myself
I cannot see or hear what is going on
What did I do?
I don't even know what I'm saying anymore
I don't know who is in the mirror
What happened?
It's too late for me
I have nothing here anymore
I want to leave
I want to end the pain
My head will not stop spinning
My stomach will not stop stinging
The world will not stop spinning
I cannot see
Darkness is my home,
Darkness is my mind
Darkness is my sight
Darkness is my friend now
I cannot live in this world
I cannot put the pieces together
There are too many pieces
Just too many
What is this I'm looking at?
I cannot find happiness anymore
I cannot seem to read
I cannot seem to care anymore
I forget myself, I forget everyone else
It would be better if I ended it
There is no hope
The pain is too great
There is no cure
Pain is my world
Darkness is my mind
I am broken
So, so broken
End it
End it now
No one cares
What will it be?
Will it be my friend the blade?
It will be good
It will take the pain away
Make it quick, no looking back
I need it
Will it be the bullet?
Pick the one that will be mine
Look at it
It will end the pain, the darkness
Kiss it goodnight before you die
Don't cry
It will be over soon
