Dear Lord God,
Thank you that you love abounds in all that I do. YOu have given me a glimpse into my future. That was a blessing unto itself but a conformation from the most unlikely of people! How you have blest me beyond all measure. You truely have given me more than I could possibly imagine.
Lord, I know that you are in charge of getting me there. I know that you have big plans for me. But Lord, I am so scared and not sure what to do. At the moment I have 2 possibilities. I can move back to England and work there or I can move to another country in Asia. Both sound great but I am not sure. The problem wtith moving to England is that I need to be self funded. Not that I don't believe that you will provide all that I need to get me there if it is your will but somehow my funds are at an all time low. Ok not an all time low but they will be if I use the rest of my money to pay for flights and accomodation along the way. That means that I will not be saving for a long time. Rather, all my money will be used to pay off my debts. Which is fine. I have no problem paying what I owe but then I always come back to the problem of what then. What do I do after I have completed my qualifications? Do I live in England for the rest of my life? Will there be any new direction after that?
Then on the other hand I have the safety of moving to Asia. I will be able to complete my Masters and pay it off as well as use the additional knowledge I have on a daily basis. Everything will be provided or at least I will have more money to do all that I need.
Then there is the ever looming idea that I may want to study counselling. Of course I can't do that until I have completed my Master of Applied Linguistics. But then again, if I study my Masters and never use it, what good is it? And then to make it all even more complicated you showed me my future. How is that supposed to happen?
Oh dear. I know that is for you to do and not me. And Lord I have prayed that you will close all doors and open only those you want me to walk through. Lord, I am struggling here and yet I have hope. I am so excited about all that you are doing in my life that I want it all to happen now! I am standing on the edge of the cliff now and am not sure how I am going to make it to the bottom! But I know that you give your angels charge over me. That they will catch me and deliver me into the plan that you have for my life.
Oh Lord the compexity that is my life. I know that you are in the midst of it all but I hope and pray that you will find me still holding on even when all my strength is gone. For it is in you that I find my strength. It is in you that I find my hope and my future. Thank you Lord, for you have not forgotten me.
Amen
Thank you that you love abounds in all that I do. YOu have given me a glimpse into my future. That was a blessing unto itself but a conformation from the most unlikely of people! How you have blest me beyond all measure. You truely have given me more than I could possibly imagine.
Lord, I know that you are in charge of getting me there. I know that you have big plans for me. But Lord, I am so scared and not sure what to do. At the moment I have 2 possibilities. I can move back to England and work there or I can move to another country in Asia. Both sound great but I am not sure. The problem wtith moving to England is that I need to be self funded. Not that I don't believe that you will provide all that I need to get me there if it is your will but somehow my funds are at an all time low. Ok not an all time low but they will be if I use the rest of my money to pay for flights and accomodation along the way. That means that I will not be saving for a long time. Rather, all my money will be used to pay off my debts. Which is fine. I have no problem paying what I owe but then I always come back to the problem of what then. What do I do after I have completed my qualifications? Do I live in England for the rest of my life? Will there be any new direction after that?
Then on the other hand I have the safety of moving to Asia. I will be able to complete my Masters and pay it off as well as use the additional knowledge I have on a daily basis. Everything will be provided or at least I will have more money to do all that I need.
Then there is the ever looming idea that I may want to study counselling. Of course I can't do that until I have completed my Master of Applied Linguistics. But then again, if I study my Masters and never use it, what good is it? And then to make it all even more complicated you showed me my future. How is that supposed to happen?
Oh dear. I know that is for you to do and not me. And Lord I have prayed that you will close all doors and open only those you want me to walk through. Lord, I am struggling here and yet I have hope. I am so excited about all that you are doing in my life that I want it all to happen now! I am standing on the edge of the cliff now and am not sure how I am going to make it to the bottom! But I know that you give your angels charge over me. That they will catch me and deliver me into the plan that you have for my life.
Oh Lord the compexity that is my life. I know that you are in the midst of it all but I hope and pray that you will find me still holding on even when all my strength is gone. For it is in you that I find my strength. It is in you that I find my hope and my future. Thank you Lord, for you have not forgotten me.
Amen
