I hate to see you struggle so hard. And I wish that I could help you more. But when you refuse to listen to my advice, there's not much I can do other than tell it to you straight. And I'm sorry if that hurts your feelings or if you don't like having the pretty picture you've painted torn down to reveal the ugly truth. I truly wish that you would do as God asks instead of fighting Him to do what you want. I was hoping that you wouldn't have to learn this lesson the hard way as I did. But no matter what, I love you, I pray for you, and I will always be here for you when you need me.