God,
I can't sleep... I have too much on my mind. God, is it wrong that I strongly desire to be married? It's not like I want just anyone... it's not like I just want A man. I want the person that You have for me. I really don't feel like I'm just seeking to feel a hole inside of myself that is meant for You alone. I don't feel like this is an unhealthy desire. If I'm wrong on that please show me. But I really don't see that I'm doing that. Why do I have this strong desire? I just want the person that You have for me... to share my life with... to grow closer to You with... I want the guy You have for me who is seeking after You strongly, who is always wanting to know You more, just like me. I want someone that I can discuss You with, someone that I can discuss the important things in life with. I want someone who knows me and loves me anyway, I want someone who understands the dynamic of my family and believes me and takes seriously what I've struggled with. I also want him to be honest with me and not just agree to agree, but I want there to be love no matter what. But please God, give him your eyes to see my family situation clearly. I want someone who can think for himself and doesn't follow the crowd, isn't easily swayed, has a mind of his own and stands firm in what he knows. I want someone who will compliment me in the ways that are truly important and that I will compliment him in the same kinds of ways. I want someone who will make a good godly husband and father. I would love it if he had a really good family for me to become a part of... but if not, as long as we have each other and are strong in You and know You that's all that matters. God, is it wrong for me to be so consumed with thoughts of a husband? What's wrong with me? I just don't want to be alone anymore. And I need companionship. I'm ready for a change in my life. I'm not where I imagined I would be at this point in my life... I wasn't sure exactly where I'd be, but I certainly didn't think this would be it. But I know that You are watching over me even now and that You are blessing me even now, right where I am. I know that You won't leave me here forever and that You have great plans for my life. Give me discernment, give me wisdom, give me strength, please give me love. Thank You Jesus.
I can't sleep... I have too much on my mind. God, is it wrong that I strongly desire to be married? It's not like I want just anyone... it's not like I just want A man. I want the person that You have for me. I really don't feel like I'm just seeking to feel a hole inside of myself that is meant for You alone. I don't feel like this is an unhealthy desire. If I'm wrong on that please show me. But I really don't see that I'm doing that. Why do I have this strong desire? I just want the person that You have for me... to share my life with... to grow closer to You with... I want the guy You have for me who is seeking after You strongly, who is always wanting to know You more, just like me. I want someone that I can discuss You with, someone that I can discuss the important things in life with. I want someone who knows me and loves me anyway, I want someone who understands the dynamic of my family and believes me and takes seriously what I've struggled with. I also want him to be honest with me and not just agree to agree, but I want there to be love no matter what. But please God, give him your eyes to see my family situation clearly. I want someone who can think for himself and doesn't follow the crowd, isn't easily swayed, has a mind of his own and stands firm in what he knows. I want someone who will compliment me in the ways that are truly important and that I will compliment him in the same kinds of ways. I want someone who will make a good godly husband and father. I would love it if he had a really good family for me to become a part of... but if not, as long as we have each other and are strong in You and know You that's all that matters. God, is it wrong for me to be so consumed with thoughts of a husband? What's wrong with me? I just don't want to be alone anymore. And I need companionship. I'm ready for a change in my life. I'm not where I imagined I would be at this point in my life... I wasn't sure exactly where I'd be, but I certainly didn't think this would be it. But I know that You are watching over me even now and that You are blessing me even now, right where I am. I know that You won't leave me here forever and that You have great plans for my life. Give me discernment, give me wisdom, give me strength, please give me love. Thank You Jesus.
