These are not the brethren. These are creepo's
These are the creatures that rip the church off by selling it a bill of goods that prophets there habits at the churches expense.
A strange thing happened months ago! A sociopath from the meetings. ( These are hardcore 12 step meetings) Fell in love with me! I think she though I was a sociopath block cell daddy!, The real cool luke. I was not! I was me pretending! I fell for her as well. However, later I found her behavior unacceptable. I never had a chance to talk to her. Problems amounted. She ended up with a real sociopathic boyfriend. I ended up leaving the meetings.
I had allot of work with my therapist over this issue.
What happened with this girl in this meeting.
I believe she was a sociopath who was looking for a sociopath. To her credit, she had some hidden feelings. Not enough feelings to change my mind about her lack of conscious.
Im back in the meetings. I thought I would never see her or her boy friend again. However, He followed me into the meetings today. I avoided him. I don't care@
God has me at those meetings to learn. To get strong. The broken relationships are part of the deal. And As I slowly get better, I am better with relationships. I suppose that is why God has me in these meeting; in addition to general recovery. And it is working. its brutal and humiliating hard work. It can be horribly heartbreaking, as relationship develop and because of immaturity; they are destroyed. ANd it can be dangerous; ones feelings can be ripped apart. Many people in these groups have no conscious. They are like animals. And you will be treated like such. Trampled under there feet, torn into pieces. These are not the type of people to hesitate a decision with.
These people make quick decisions and follow through. They are tough people, and they are teaching me how to be tough. just what I needed. Where they are strong, I am weak. And it is working. The price is horrible. However, God sent me to these rooms for a reason.. to tuff-in up the inside of me. Its grueling. It works.
ITs traumatizing. Its working. your brain must become strong to handle these situations.
The problem with the girl is; a strange dilemma I cannot fix. I have to let it go, potential and all. This really sucks. Its hard.. Really hard, hard. Ok.. I will trust God. its a hard group with hard rules. You snooze, you loose. Its that simple. That is what happened in the real world, for all practical sense. It wasn't my fault. Doesn't matter. God loves me, the rest of the world does not accept excuses. So, either I play like the Romans when in rome or I find another play yard to hit the ball in!
People act like property! its part of the mentality of the groups. Its hard, its fast, and its complete.
These are the creatures that rip the church off by selling it a bill of goods that prophets there habits at the churches expense.
A strange thing happened months ago! A sociopath from the meetings. ( These are hardcore 12 step meetings) Fell in love with me! I think she though I was a sociopath block cell daddy!, The real cool luke. I was not! I was me pretending! I fell for her as well. However, later I found her behavior unacceptable. I never had a chance to talk to her. Problems amounted. She ended up with a real sociopathic boyfriend. I ended up leaving the meetings.
I had allot of work with my therapist over this issue.
What happened with this girl in this meeting.
I believe she was a sociopath who was looking for a sociopath. To her credit, she had some hidden feelings. Not enough feelings to change my mind about her lack of conscious.
Im back in the meetings. I thought I would never see her or her boy friend again. However, He followed me into the meetings today. I avoided him. I don't care@
God has me at those meetings to learn. To get strong. The broken relationships are part of the deal. And As I slowly get better, I am better with relationships. I suppose that is why God has me in these meeting; in addition to general recovery. And it is working. its brutal and humiliating hard work. It can be horribly heartbreaking, as relationship develop and because of immaturity; they are destroyed. ANd it can be dangerous; ones feelings can be ripped apart. Many people in these groups have no conscious. They are like animals. And you will be treated like such. Trampled under there feet, torn into pieces. These are not the type of people to hesitate a decision with.
These people make quick decisions and follow through. They are tough people, and they are teaching me how to be tough. just what I needed. Where they are strong, I am weak. And it is working. The price is horrible. However, God sent me to these rooms for a reason.. to tuff-in up the inside of me. Its grueling. It works.
ITs traumatizing. Its working. your brain must become strong to handle these situations.
The problem with the girl is; a strange dilemma I cannot fix. I have to let it go, potential and all. This really sucks. Its hard.. Really hard, hard. Ok.. I will trust God. its a hard group with hard rules. You snooze, you loose. Its that simple. That is what happened in the real world, for all practical sense. It wasn't my fault. Doesn't matter. God loves me, the rest of the world does not accept excuses. So, either I play like the Romans when in rome or I find another play yard to hit the ball in!
People act like property! its part of the mentality of the groups. Its hard, its fast, and its complete.
