cycle of Rejection

I have special needs, I was diagnosed with Asperger's, ADD, Poor Social Skills, poor information processing skills, mild dyslexia, it took me a long time to learn to read, I had a mild stutter as a kid which still rears its head once in a while and I have hard time pronouncing certain words. I'm also introverted, though I'm a good actor and can act extroverted because I pretend I'm someone else, but ask me to be me and I'll go hide in the corner, I have very low self esteem and find it hard to understand why anybody in the world would like me. Mostly cause people don't like me and think I'm strange, and I don't understand how to read people and frequently say things that people seem to think are weird. Throughout my life I have made good friends, but my friendships never last long and always result in mostly be totally ignored by someone who was once a close friend. So I never know why they don't like me. This Fall I'd made a new friend for the first time in 4 years. The night we met at church we just hit it off so well, we talked all night and started to hangout, my new friend told me I was very cool, a great friend and someone he could really talk to and he was so glad he met me. we even started 2 meet for bible study once a week. For 2 months we were great friends. He then went home for Christmas vacation which is only 40 minutes away, and then he started to just ignore me. He no longer would talk to me, hang out or bible study. I've had the odd TEXT message and he hasn't unfriended me on facebook, but no matter how I try to contact him or asks what's up he never responds. We're both watching the Superbowl tonight on our own, and not together, we went to the same concert Friday night, spent most of the night only feet apart but he wouldn't speak to me. From all the things we have in common and problems we share I figured he'd be the last person ever to treat me this way. But I'm tired of rejection, it keeps happening & I don't know why, I always try to be real kind and generous to my friends, but people seem to treat me a like a new toy they at first are excited about then get bored and ignore me. It hurts so much and hurts more each time, I invest time in other people then just get rejected, I have no idea why or what I'm doing wrong. I always ask for at least why do they not wanna know me no more in the help they say something that'll help me with future friendships but nobody ever does, so my friendships just keep failing & I have so few friends. The latest hurts me so much as we had so much in common and had become good friends very quickly, I have no idea what's gone wrong, I hate rejection & losing friends, I find it so hard to deal with. I wish for once in my life I could meet someone who actually wanted to be my friend, who would call me, who would be happy to see me, who liked to hangout with me. It's never happened. The world is just a sucky place, so few people seem to be interested in making friends being friends. There are a lot of young adults at my church, I try to talk to people, and I do, but people tend to talk to me like I'm retarded and never invite me to do things with them. Friendship just seems like a myth.