At church,. I performed another song! It was extreme and hard. I let my voice out a bit. It is so embarrassing. No one will ever know embarrassment until you must let your feelings out, singing in front of people. Its something else. Its fright at its height..
The minister has scared so many people away. He's a narcissist.
He hates behind your back. Yet, if your popular with some of the money people in the church, he can be your best friend to your face.
Its all performance. He turns on you like a lightbulb; on, off!
Its horrible; some of his comments. However, God has me there for a reason. And Im grateful for that. And its working@ Im taking the bad with the Good. I will continue to pray about it. I will continue to work on it!
Im in a strange place, that I need to learn to trust God. God is everything right now.
I want to go back to the world to get attention and not be alone. However, the people , places and things I know of in the world were OK 10 years ago. They are not OK now! At-least, I don't think so. They are not the right people. ITs not safe.
I keep asking God for help!
Its a real interesting Time. Many people drop away when they find they cannot manipulate me. They leave and don't come back. It was always about them...
Godless manipulators are everywhere!
The minister has scared so many people away. He's a narcissist.
He hates behind your back. Yet, if your popular with some of the money people in the church, he can be your best friend to your face.
Its all performance. He turns on you like a lightbulb; on, off!
Its horrible; some of his comments. However, God has me there for a reason. And Im grateful for that. And its working@ Im taking the bad with the Good. I will continue to pray about it. I will continue to work on it!
Im in a strange place, that I need to learn to trust God. God is everything right now.
I want to go back to the world to get attention and not be alone. However, the people , places and things I know of in the world were OK 10 years ago. They are not OK now! At-least, I don't think so. They are not the right people. ITs not safe.
I keep asking God for help!
Its a real interesting Time. Many people drop away when they find they cannot manipulate me. They leave and don't come back. It was always about them...
Godless manipulators are everywhere!
