I have to step back from my church!
I am hated at this place. Contempt!
I have had massive PTSD long term problems! CPTSD,
I was diagnosed 100% dissociative disorder! I was put on social security! I was 100% disabled.
THe church Im at is calling me a lier, or down playing everything about me so they will look good and I wont take the lime light. Now they are actually calling me a lier to my face! saying there is nothing wrong with me!
Who exactly are these people! or what are they! They have nothing to do with God! I have everything to do with God! This is despicable and strange.
Why would a bunch of grown ups call another grown man a lier with no evidence in either direction.
Eviel is the problem. There are Eviel people running things, that no nothing about God! They are into control! and putting down others in abusive ways!
I will have to continue to pray about it!
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There is a girl at the meetings that looks like a porno star! It is very confusing when looking at her!
Im not sure if I should be friends with her or not! she has no self worth. men like her for one reason! I believe she thinks her worth has to do with the way she looks.
I think I need to stay far from her! and stay with God! I thought about being friends with her! I do not see its possible!
She does seem sweet to me even tho she is sexy!
It is kind of sickening to see someone as sexy! The reason is; they are a human being! and if all they want is to be loved, or have someone love them, then I have no interest in them! I have no interest around them unless Im going to love them! Seeing them as a sex object is not what they wanted! They wanted to be loved.
Thank God I have God! I can pray to God about it and stay out of it! Does God want me around this girl or not! and the answer is! NO! I need to stay a million miles away from this person! And now I must learn to do what God tells me!
Sex is a hard thing! Beautiful women that ooze sexuality is a very hard thing to deal with, but when the girl looks like a porn star and oozes sex!, it takes it to a whole other level; and As I said before! she thinks her self worth is in sex! so I must stay away! Its very sad if you ever see it in real life! its not something you want to get involved with, it will just make you unhappy and sad! its a sad state of affairs.
I am to stay out of or away from! I have to learn this!
If I do not want the girl as a friend, I should stay away from her!
I am hated at this place. Contempt!
I have had massive PTSD long term problems! CPTSD,
I was diagnosed 100% dissociative disorder! I was put on social security! I was 100% disabled.
THe church Im at is calling me a lier, or down playing everything about me so they will look good and I wont take the lime light. Now they are actually calling me a lier to my face! saying there is nothing wrong with me!
Who exactly are these people! or what are they! They have nothing to do with God! I have everything to do with God! This is despicable and strange.
Why would a bunch of grown ups call another grown man a lier with no evidence in either direction.
Eviel is the problem. There are Eviel people running things, that no nothing about God! They are into control! and putting down others in abusive ways!
I will have to continue to pray about it!
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There is a girl at the meetings that looks like a porno star! It is very confusing when looking at her!
Im not sure if I should be friends with her or not! she has no self worth. men like her for one reason! I believe she thinks her worth has to do with the way she looks.
I think I need to stay far from her! and stay with God! I thought about being friends with her! I do not see its possible!
She does seem sweet to me even tho she is sexy!
It is kind of sickening to see someone as sexy! The reason is; they are a human being! and if all they want is to be loved, or have someone love them, then I have no interest in them! I have no interest around them unless Im going to love them! Seeing them as a sex object is not what they wanted! They wanted to be loved.
Thank God I have God! I can pray to God about it and stay out of it! Does God want me around this girl or not! and the answer is! NO! I need to stay a million miles away from this person! And now I must learn to do what God tells me!
Sex is a hard thing! Beautiful women that ooze sexuality is a very hard thing to deal with, but when the girl looks like a porn star and oozes sex!, it takes it to a whole other level; and As I said before! she thinks her self worth is in sex! so I must stay away! Its very sad if you ever see it in real life! its not something you want to get involved with, it will just make you unhappy and sad! its a sad state of affairs.
I am to stay out of or away from! I have to learn this!
If I do not want the girl as a friend, I should stay away from her!
