Hey everyone... My name is Lauren, i'm 18 and would like to call myself a dedicated Christian, but i'm not. What I am though, is a girl who finds safety and security with God and that will never change, but I lack the motivation. I want this to change deeply, but usually this happens with motivation, and by human nature there is always a reward for your deeds. I know thats COMPLETELY wrong (especially coming from a Christian) but inside I feel a bit lost, like i've past the climax of being a Christian and now I just have to ride out the waves. I want so badly to look forward to something in my Christian life again, and when I think of Jesus while giving a homeless person lunch I want more emotion in my heart. I also am not consistently going to church, but this is for other reasons than simply being lazy. I find myself scared. Perhaps this is due to the numerous religious cult books I have read, or i'm scared of being judged by my un-natural hair, or the tattoos I have at a young age, whatever the case I am embarrassed of my sinful self. I need some support, my family is always doing something else on Sunday and going alone to a random church terrifies me. I want my new church to be my home. I want to get to know the people like they are my sisters and brothers, and most of all I crave a knowledgable and strong relationship with my God. I am lost and in need of some Christianly advise, even if it is from a stranger. Please, if you took the time to read my segment all I ask is for some tips on getting back into a better active, real Christian life.
(P.S. one of my tattoos is Pslam 19:14 - great verse, check it out.)
(P.S. one of my tattoos is Pslam 19:14 - great verse, check it out.)
