well...unfortunately the move got postphoned. I was told yesterday that the funds we were expecting did not come though. In fact there were not funds for the trip. My paernts I am thankful for they have suffered though a lot to help me though this new season. I was oviously shelfish yesterday.
I wept a lot and was very angry to say thie least. I cried my heart to sleep and was oviously not wanting to speaki to anyone i basically shut down and close the door to life yesterdahy and today. My parents are going though more than what i coupld possible go though rightn ow but at the same time how could i be so excited for this next trip and yet to have it moved as if a race to say here is the finish line but your not done yet you have to walk father. As i right this i am thinking about jacob how he was going to take leah and he had to work 7 more hyears for her plus take racheal and the devistation continued where he had to work and yet GOd gave him prosperity out of that. hmm maybe i need to rethingk this. The best is yet to come. It is time or me to refocus here and see what the father is doing.
I will not be moving till sunday or sometime next weekend although in my heart i can see possible during the middle of the week too. I am not sure though. I thank you all for loving me though this time and reading my blogs i preciate it.
blessings
Esmeralda
I wept a lot and was very angry to say thie least. I cried my heart to sleep and was oviously not wanting to speaki to anyone i basically shut down and close the door to life yesterdahy and today. My parents are going though more than what i coupld possible go though rightn ow but at the same time how could i be so excited for this next trip and yet to have it moved as if a race to say here is the finish line but your not done yet you have to walk father. As i right this i am thinking about jacob how he was going to take leah and he had to work 7 more hyears for her plus take racheal and the devistation continued where he had to work and yet GOd gave him prosperity out of that. hmm maybe i need to rethingk this. The best is yet to come. It is time or me to refocus here and see what the father is doing.
I will not be moving till sunday or sometime next weekend although in my heart i can see possible during the middle of the week too. I am not sure though. I thank you all for loving me though this time and reading my blogs i preciate it.
blessings
Esmeralda
