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Eloi, Eloi, lema sabachthani
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It’s a slow fade, when you give yourself away…
Or when you dissolve into the despair in yourself. It fades pretty quickly then.
Metaphorically, I am driving in an ice storm, there’s black ice everywhere, its pitch black in the dead of night and there are flurries of snow mixed with the...
For me, it is easier to be myself than to describe the color red...now there's some insight.
Have you ever tried to describe the color red? Where do you begin? This is why my outcries are misconstrued as something they are not, because it's a show of what's going on underneath.
I think that's the difference in the scar tissue: that which I create and that which is created for me. If I can justify my battlewounds, then it's 'okay' so far as I am concerned, but when that control, when that control is stolen from me, like robbing an infant of it's pacifier, I have issues...
I got asked if I blame God for my miscarriage. I got asked if I blame pretty much anyone...the answer is no. I cannot assume I know anything about WHY this happened, because frankly, I am dumbfounded...I can just hold on and pray that for some glorious reason, it has occurred, and my child is...
You're in the moment now
A bitter root
A wandering eye and then
The ties that bind start wearing thin, thin
You're in the moment now
When all you've been blessed with
Is not enough
Here's where the ground gets loose
Here's where the devils call your bluff
Stay strong
You are not lost
Come on...
I'm tired of looking at my failures.
I 'should' be graduating this year, if not next, with at least ONE of my two degrees I was pursuing. But alas, half-hearted attempts always fail. I know what I SHOULD be doing...my dad is an Assemblies of God pastor!!!!
*Sigh* It is well with my soul...
Accidents don't 'happen.' They don't just magically occur, they are there, for a reason.
Stupid, stupid, stupid...why on earth did I EVER seek him out? Why? Why, why, why, why, why????
Eloi, eloi....:cry:
Good Morning Planetarium-Falling Up
The fight is over now, the bright lights turned...
S: And now she sleeps eternally. My companion through a difficult change, I was her protector, and I failed her, I failed her horrendously. Viciously destroyed, gone, forever. RIP: April 18, 2008
VS: Almost 10 years now, she will have been gone, destroyed by the cells of her own body. No more...
The past is the past, is it not? What if, and what when, the past becomes the presence and engulfs every breath taken, every utterance stuttered, every pore of every crevice of your soul?
It becomes a living hell, a walking nightmare, a living, breathing, numb but pain-letting zombie, or at...
Flipsyde.
Happy Birthday...so make a wish
Verse 1:
Please accept my apologies, wonder what would have been
Would you've been a little angel or an angel of sin?
Tom-boy running around, hanging with all the guys.
Or a little tough boy with beautiful brown eyes?
I payed for the murder before they...
It's fading faster than I can catch it.
I have sought the resources, I have done what I am "supposed" to, and still, it seeps through my fingers, as water through a sieve.
Lord, help me, it's not in my control anymore.
I've lost my friend to murder. I've lost my ferret to slaughter by a...
To everyone who’s lost someone they loved, long before it was their time, you feel like the days you had were not enough, when you said goodbye, and to all other people with burdens and pains keeping you back from your life, you believe that theres nothing and there is no one who can make it...