I know this sounds like a strange topic.. However, I will explain.
Im in recovery for many things. At one point in my early recovery work. God brought me bicycles.
And bikes have been a very good thing..
A few years ago, I expanded my awareness of bicycling.. I went from Mountain bikes to all kinds of bikes; then it happened!
I begin to get expensive bikes stolen. God allowed a new bike into my life, an expensive mountain bike, not usable for everyday use. I did not realize this.
The new mountain bike was to new. To good looking. Not safe to take outside.
I had a similar bike stolen in front of my apartment a year before.
I bought an expensive touring road bike. It got stolen a month ago for similar reasons.
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Ive been riding mountain bikes for 12 years everyday. Ive always bought the right bikes for the job...
with in one year, 2 expensive bikes stolen in similar ways, and another expensive bike I cant use because its to pretty... I wont sell this bike, I would never get what I payed for it used... Its like being stuck with a piece of metal.
I needed bikes for transportation. Possibly I was angry that Gods original intention for my interest in bikes has turned from fun to practical.
Its as if Im growing up. Growing up with God and bicycles.
Im in my teen years.. Im actually 50 years old.
However, in my spirituality Im growing throw my teen years. Im an eight year old, playing with mountain bikes, then Im a teen loosing bikes I need for transportation...
Its all very strange, and has been horribly expensive and frustrating..
I went into dept. for the last bike. Now Im paying off a bike that someone else is riding.
In a few months I will be out of dept. and back to ground one.. The starting place again..
This means a whole new approach to my biking interests... God brought me biking and he can take it away.. I think he has been showing me some grow up lessons.
If you leave your bike in the yard over night, you will get it stolen... Simple things like the above are showroom examples of correction that Im learning..
God is teaching me correction... To be corrected. Its really helped.
I was locking my bikes inside at a stair well overnight.. I thought it was OK
Now, looking back on it. A 2000$ bike locked to a tree at night.. well, I was very ill at the time and could not move much for a month.. However, I could have called for help.
14 hundred dollar road bike; a little lock outside my apartment on the main floor of an open apartment building, repeatedly at night!
Looking back at these 2 examples, Im shocked. It did not take long to see the picture and the horror of my ways. a 6th grade kid could figure this out.
Now! I take my bikes up the stairs every-time I ride.. everything goes into the apartment.. Ive learned that lesson
Lesson 2; Nice bikes don't go outside all that much, only on special occasions. They are not made for daily commutes. Then what kind of bikes do I ride?
Daily commute bikes; these are bikes for grocery runs, and coffee shop stuff, and riding to a meeting. These need to get the job done, but not to expensive. They will be used allot through the day and locked up at different places.
If I want a daily full suspension mountain bike; not to expensive or it better not look expensive. or one other lower level mountain bike for outside fun use, not the expensive one≥
God is helping me understand. I got complacent and thought the world owed me. And I thought the world revolved around me. I thought I could rule the world.. Im the big shot. Then very quickly everything started to disappear including my outlook on things.
no one owes me anything… And this will not change. The outside world is a place I have no privilege in and I control nothing.
Im in recovery for many things. At one point in my early recovery work. God brought me bicycles.
And bikes have been a very good thing..
A few years ago, I expanded my awareness of bicycling.. I went from Mountain bikes to all kinds of bikes; then it happened!
I begin to get expensive bikes stolen. God allowed a new bike into my life, an expensive mountain bike, not usable for everyday use. I did not realize this.
The new mountain bike was to new. To good looking. Not safe to take outside.
I had a similar bike stolen in front of my apartment a year before.
I bought an expensive touring road bike. It got stolen a month ago for similar reasons.
-------
Ive been riding mountain bikes for 12 years everyday. Ive always bought the right bikes for the job...
with in one year, 2 expensive bikes stolen in similar ways, and another expensive bike I cant use because its to pretty... I wont sell this bike, I would never get what I payed for it used... Its like being stuck with a piece of metal.
I needed bikes for transportation. Possibly I was angry that Gods original intention for my interest in bikes has turned from fun to practical.
Its as if Im growing up. Growing up with God and bicycles.
Im in my teen years.. Im actually 50 years old.
However, in my spirituality Im growing throw my teen years. Im an eight year old, playing with mountain bikes, then Im a teen loosing bikes I need for transportation...
Its all very strange, and has been horribly expensive and frustrating..
I went into dept. for the last bike. Now Im paying off a bike that someone else is riding.
In a few months I will be out of dept. and back to ground one.. The starting place again..
This means a whole new approach to my biking interests... God brought me biking and he can take it away.. I think he has been showing me some grow up lessons.
If you leave your bike in the yard over night, you will get it stolen... Simple things like the above are showroom examples of correction that Im learning..
God is teaching me correction... To be corrected. Its really helped.
I was locking my bikes inside at a stair well overnight.. I thought it was OK
Now, looking back on it. A 2000$ bike locked to a tree at night.. well, I was very ill at the time and could not move much for a month.. However, I could have called for help.
14 hundred dollar road bike; a little lock outside my apartment on the main floor of an open apartment building, repeatedly at night!
Looking back at these 2 examples, Im shocked. It did not take long to see the picture and the horror of my ways. a 6th grade kid could figure this out.
Now! I take my bikes up the stairs every-time I ride.. everything goes into the apartment.. Ive learned that lesson
Lesson 2; Nice bikes don't go outside all that much, only on special occasions. They are not made for daily commutes. Then what kind of bikes do I ride?
Daily commute bikes; these are bikes for grocery runs, and coffee shop stuff, and riding to a meeting. These need to get the job done, but not to expensive. They will be used allot through the day and locked up at different places.
If I want a daily full suspension mountain bike; not to expensive or it better not look expensive. or one other lower level mountain bike for outside fun use, not the expensive one≥
God is helping me understand. I got complacent and thought the world owed me. And I thought the world revolved around me. I thought I could rule the world.. Im the big shot. Then very quickly everything started to disappear including my outlook on things.
no one owes me anything… And this will not change. The outside world is a place I have no privilege in and I control nothing.
