i had a beautiful moment today. theres this place i go where i park my car and just look out at the ocean. its so soothing. today in my head replayed "God wants you to enjoy this, God made this for you to know of his glory." i thanked God for the many gifts He has given me.
Tonight i went to my bible study. at the church they were having a special worship for the ladies of the church so i went to that instead. well i worshiped so hard. i have never worshiped this intense before. i felt something warm and soothing. i was at peace. it was a peace i havent experienced in a while. it stinks when your going through a spiritual battle. but i really cherished the moment.
then during a worship song, i had an urge to just pray the song so i put my head down and i pray the words instead of singing and dancing. i cried my heart out to God. I havent done this in a while either. then i saw my friend do her testimony and she did a special dance for the ladies. it was so beautiful. it brought me to tears. i want to be strong in my walk with God.
ive been slacking off for awhile and tonight brought me back to that peaceful place with God. then for closing they sang one of my favorite songs "lead me to the cross" they invited the ladies to go up to the cross they had and pray. nobody was going and i felt the urge to do so. so there i was on my knees infront of everybody crying out to Jesus with my hand on a nail. i didnt pray, i just cried. i just felt the power of Jesus, the healing, the love, the feeling of belonging and change i must do to feel more of a person of peace that i so long to be. then my friend came and prayed over me and prayed with me. i love having people in my life that just take me hand and pray with me. i forgot how much i love to pray with others. its like our souls connect because we both have love and trust in Jesus. i also received a gift tonight. its a necklace with 3 nails shaped in a cross. the nails are to remind me that i put the nails through Jesus. His blood is my randsom. He is my savior, my king who reigns over me. I have to be more Christ-like. i cant keep slinding like i have been.
after that i talked to this lady who i havent seen in a while. she always tells me how she likes how i worship and how she likes when my friends and i dance. turns out she knows my grandfather and she wants me to become more active in the womens ministry. and i am. im going to take membership classes because i really want to help out with little kids know about God.
i love when children talk about God. it reminds me of having "we must have child-like faith to enter the kingdom of God." which is good news to me since i still play with a barbie doll and make up games to amuse myself. im a big kid at heart, im never gonna grow up. i get so excited when disney cartoons come on.
God continues to amaze me more each day. just when im thinking blah, god doesnt care about me, im just a speck and hes God. he shines a light of love into me and its just God and Amanda. nothing else matters really.
Tonight i went to my bible study. at the church they were having a special worship for the ladies of the church so i went to that instead. well i worshiped so hard. i have never worshiped this intense before. i felt something warm and soothing. i was at peace. it was a peace i havent experienced in a while. it stinks when your going through a spiritual battle. but i really cherished the moment.
then during a worship song, i had an urge to just pray the song so i put my head down and i pray the words instead of singing and dancing. i cried my heart out to God. I havent done this in a while either. then i saw my friend do her testimony and she did a special dance for the ladies. it was so beautiful. it brought me to tears. i want to be strong in my walk with God.
ive been slacking off for awhile and tonight brought me back to that peaceful place with God. then for closing they sang one of my favorite songs "lead me to the cross" they invited the ladies to go up to the cross they had and pray. nobody was going and i felt the urge to do so. so there i was on my knees infront of everybody crying out to Jesus with my hand on a nail. i didnt pray, i just cried. i just felt the power of Jesus, the healing, the love, the feeling of belonging and change i must do to feel more of a person of peace that i so long to be. then my friend came and prayed over me and prayed with me. i love having people in my life that just take me hand and pray with me. i forgot how much i love to pray with others. its like our souls connect because we both have love and trust in Jesus. i also received a gift tonight. its a necklace with 3 nails shaped in a cross. the nails are to remind me that i put the nails through Jesus. His blood is my randsom. He is my savior, my king who reigns over me. I have to be more Christ-like. i cant keep slinding like i have been.
after that i talked to this lady who i havent seen in a while. she always tells me how she likes how i worship and how she likes when my friends and i dance. turns out she knows my grandfather and she wants me to become more active in the womens ministry. and i am. im going to take membership classes because i really want to help out with little kids know about God.
i love when children talk about God. it reminds me of having "we must have child-like faith to enter the kingdom of God." which is good news to me since i still play with a barbie doll and make up games to amuse myself. im a big kid at heart, im never gonna grow up. i get so excited when disney cartoons come on.
God continues to amaze me more each day. just when im thinking blah, god doesnt care about me, im just a speck and hes God. he shines a light of love into me and its just God and Amanda. nothing else matters really.
