the weather is changing up here on the mountain, summer came and went so fast as time moves faster and faster now...I think it is the confession of people that has made this happen, who doesn't/hasn't confessed there is not enough time......I have always been a deep thinking, from being kept isolated as a child I suppose. Jesus came to me, not the other way around....abusers tell you abuse did not occur it is all in your head. took me a long time to trust myself, my thoughts, my beliefs because of this. I still have pain, I still have scars...but I am no longer tormented as I was for sooooooo long. I still have critical thoughts and alot of my words are critical. I am working on breaking out of that. In my support group I learned to focus, to be present...after all god is only in the present, the past does not exist. I suffer from anticipatory anxiety. and I am still manic most of the time...I thought for awhile I wasn't manic, as I have learned to hide it better but reality is it is still in control of me. Once I know what something is I am able to conquer it, but so many things I have had all my life and it has taken work to sort out what belongs and what doesn't. when I first began this process 6 years ago, I let go of all my unexplained experiences with the supernatural, set it all on a shelf to be aceesed later after I gained a healthy brain...Jesus is real. You have to experience it to know it , but once you have you know that you know that you know...and in knowing there is power, power to lean on and trust in. I haven't voted since I , onee of 12..lol...voted for Ross Perot...there are several reasons but the real reason is these politicians will change things based on their agenda, not the good of the whole. I pray now instead of voting....our whole politcal system in the US is crumbling and will continue to crumble as the kingdom of God continues to manifest and grow. I was watching fox news one night last week, Sean Hannity...and he was saying the liberal press was reporting people at the town hall meetings were more or less hostile idiots...so I turned to cnn and they were saying that....I was happily surprised that fox news was reporting true facts...I don't believe any of them...I am all about truth and I look for facts....it is very apparent both sides are trying to stir things up...brain washing has been going on for a long time, I am not brain washable, if I was I would still be unhealthy and in abuse...but nowadays the brain wahing is so rampant, just listen to a young democrateor any liberal, what they say is not even based in facts....case in point, Sean Hannity did a town hall on his show, one young guy says: the prosters at the town halls are the same people who think Obama is not a US citizen....a statement so clearly false, yet he seemed to feel his saying so made it true. a familiar mindset of the liberals. In thinking of God's kingdom, no more lawyers, judges, doctors........the new health care proposal seems to attack the doctors most I think in as it will cap how much they can charge for things....won't be long now people will get it....karma is real...and lawyers and judges won't be needed as we all recongize we do answer to a higher power/s.....
it's all good.
it's all good.
