Its getting hard! I have to trust God! I think I wrote a blog earlier, Im not sure!
I was attacked subtly at a meeting today! Its a from of identity murder. Those around me do not want me to get better! they will not participate in my life, instead in my destruction.
The 12 step system is not working at higher levels and Im not sure what to do about it; others are not participating that are in the rooms, they are putting up defiant road blocks. All I have left is online blogging in order to get the truth out! its horrible, I wish it was different.
Im going to walk away when someone bothers me at a meeting, first Im going to trust God and keep working at it and pray. I can forgive, However, forgiveness is not the problem I think! its a more real situation that is causing the problem. I need to be in a place of no cross talking when I talk and then have the ability to walk away!
I have to remember, its about God! Trusting God!
Im not around safe people!
I was attacked subtly at a meeting today! Its a from of identity murder. Those around me do not want me to get better! they will not participate in my life, instead in my destruction.
The 12 step system is not working at higher levels and Im not sure what to do about it; others are not participating that are in the rooms, they are putting up defiant road blocks. All I have left is online blogging in order to get the truth out! its horrible, I wish it was different.
Im going to walk away when someone bothers me at a meeting, first Im going to trust God and keep working at it and pray. I can forgive, However, forgiveness is not the problem I think! its a more real situation that is causing the problem. I need to be in a place of no cross talking when I talk and then have the ability to walk away!
I have to remember, its about God! Trusting God!
Im not around safe people!
