Im in that space of getting better from my disorders!
The symptoms are going down! Im dealing with the past, the losses, and how I was not loved by anyone.. Im seeing and feeling more! its all very confusing and hard.
I see myself with a cozy family system, then Im thrown away as fast as I was apart of something! and I was slammed shut as a human being.
Im now slowly coming back with the help of God and lots of 12 steps groups.
Im also in church, However, they are so judgmental; churches are the worst judgers in the world!
However, it seems more demonic at church then it does on the streets..
People in church hate to much. They hate everyone including themselves. Its unbelievable.≥.
Ok, so:
Im slowly feeling, dealing, and healing!
Im seeing and reliving stuff from a long time ago, that is not there, from a life I felt secure in, then it was all gone.
The goal is to see the good stuff, feel it, be apart of it, come back to life, and move on from there as if nothing ever happened to me!
I know things are getting better. However, Im hurting at the moment and Im scared and insecure...
Im scared to face these demons.. I must trust God!
The symptoms are going down! Im dealing with the past, the losses, and how I was not loved by anyone.. Im seeing and feeling more! its all very confusing and hard.
I see myself with a cozy family system, then Im thrown away as fast as I was apart of something! and I was slammed shut as a human being.
Im now slowly coming back with the help of God and lots of 12 steps groups.
Im also in church, However, they are so judgmental; churches are the worst judgers in the world!
However, it seems more demonic at church then it does on the streets..
People in church hate to much. They hate everyone including themselves. Its unbelievable.≥.
Ok, so:
Im slowly feeling, dealing, and healing!
Im seeing and reliving stuff from a long time ago, that is not there, from a life I felt secure in, then it was all gone.
The goal is to see the good stuff, feel it, be apart of it, come back to life, and move on from there as if nothing ever happened to me!
I know things are getting better. However, Im hurting at the moment and Im scared and insecure...
Im scared to face these demons.. I must trust God!
