Well, what a difference a YEAR makes.
This time last year I was going through the mundane niceties of another Christmas which meant absolutely nothing.....hating every commercial aspect of it but having to do it because I have a son who has disabilities. Even though he is 29 he doesn't understand that there is no Santa, that all of what we celebrate is nothing but a vast marketing ploy by multi-nationals seeking profit.
I know, I know - Christmas is what you make it but I don't have the choice. Christopher expects Christmas and what sort of Mummy would I be if I let him down?
So back to last year.....in a relationship that had been dead for some time. Pity he didn't feel the same way. It's complicated.
He was jealous I had found new friends, was enjoying meeting my new friends and excluding him (the clues were there!!!).
And in July the relationship ended.....I ended it. WHY? Because I realised after night out with one of my new friends that life was too short to be with the wrong man.
And my new friend.....well we sat (albeit we were a bit drunk) on our local City Hall steps till well gone 3am just talking and laughing and crying - and we realised that we had made an emotional and spiritual connection.
I knew this was the person I would spend the rest of my life with....I just knew, don't ask me how.
He very gallantly saw me home safely and the following day I told my disinterested partner where I had been and who with. He was unconcerned. So I ended it.
And Mike and I began our relationship.
On the City Hall steps we had been talking about all sorts of things and he made quite a few confessions that he hadn't done with other partners....but the one that scared me most was that he was a Christian.
I'd been down that route 10 years before - did the Alpha Course - knelt on the rail at the alter waiting to give my life to God and the woman started speaking in tongues....WRONG MOVE. I felt excluded and couldn't get away fast enough.
But with Mike I had felt something. I knew that with all his addictions he had not died for a reason.....and believe me with all the addictions he should have been long dead.....the reason I felt was that he had been sent to bring me back to Jesus.
We talked at great length about Jesus and God and through him I found a traditional Church and the Jesus Fellowship Church (not so traditional)......and I am currently walking "in friendship" with them, supporting Mike.
I don't know if my previous bad experience will ever get me fully in touch with Jesus and God again....I don't know where my destiny lies.....all I know is that it will be with Mike.
This Christmas was the FIRST time since I have been away from the home I was raised (33 years) that grace was said before Christmas Dinner.....I asked Mike and he gave thanks for the food.
I thank Jesus for sending Mike to me.
And I am looking forward to a Peaceful and Happy 2009.
Blessings
This time last year I was going through the mundane niceties of another Christmas which meant absolutely nothing.....hating every commercial aspect of it but having to do it because I have a son who has disabilities. Even though he is 29 he doesn't understand that there is no Santa, that all of what we celebrate is nothing but a vast marketing ploy by multi-nationals seeking profit.
I know, I know - Christmas is what you make it but I don't have the choice. Christopher expects Christmas and what sort of Mummy would I be if I let him down?
So back to last year.....in a relationship that had been dead for some time. Pity he didn't feel the same way. It's complicated.
He was jealous I had found new friends, was enjoying meeting my new friends and excluding him (the clues were there!!!).
And in July the relationship ended.....I ended it. WHY? Because I realised after night out with one of my new friends that life was too short to be with the wrong man.
And my new friend.....well we sat (albeit we were a bit drunk) on our local City Hall steps till well gone 3am just talking and laughing and crying - and we realised that we had made an emotional and spiritual connection.
I knew this was the person I would spend the rest of my life with....I just knew, don't ask me how.
He very gallantly saw me home safely and the following day I told my disinterested partner where I had been and who with. He was unconcerned. So I ended it.
And Mike and I began our relationship.
On the City Hall steps we had been talking about all sorts of things and he made quite a few confessions that he hadn't done with other partners....but the one that scared me most was that he was a Christian.
I'd been down that route 10 years before - did the Alpha Course - knelt on the rail at the alter waiting to give my life to God and the woman started speaking in tongues....WRONG MOVE. I felt excluded and couldn't get away fast enough.
But with Mike I had felt something. I knew that with all his addictions he had not died for a reason.....and believe me with all the addictions he should have been long dead.....the reason I felt was that he had been sent to bring me back to Jesus.
We talked at great length about Jesus and God and through him I found a traditional Church and the Jesus Fellowship Church (not so traditional)......and I am currently walking "in friendship" with them, supporting Mike.
I don't know if my previous bad experience will ever get me fully in touch with Jesus and God again....I don't know where my destiny lies.....all I know is that it will be with Mike.
This Christmas was the FIRST time since I have been away from the home I was raised (33 years) that grace was said before Christmas Dinner.....I asked Mike and he gave thanks for the food.
I thank Jesus for sending Mike to me.
And I am looking forward to a Peaceful and Happy 2009.
Blessings
