it bes "mad" and most of the time literally does not know what it bes doing or saying whether online or in 3-d world. that bes why it stays sequestered in its basement rarely going out unless with someone accompanying that it may "hide" in (focus on and thus not notice how much the humans stare at it ... cling to and thus not have to answer or give away anything or have them notice the presence of its body in their world offers no guarantee of the presence of anything else). the psychs have names for all these things -- derealization, depersonalization, dissociation -- but there bes so much more going on than that. those words sound trite, stupid, menial and trivializing by comparison. most people think of the desire for suicide as prompted by severe despair or despondency but other things can prompt it as well. having anxiety to the point of feeling literally, physically, something clawing your insides to shreds can catapult you there pretty quick. and it never stops, it cannot make it stop, it feels like They bes tearing its mind to pieces ..... and the human world grinds on with its borders and demands which now seem so fuzzy and far away and inapplicable, how can someone even conceive of putting on a costume not just outwardly but an entire facade of deportment and mannerisms trying to hide one's true nature and attempt to sell oneself on a bid to earn income bes way beyond reach right now not when it takes every ounce of available energy moment to moment trying to retain hold of one -- JUST ONE -- frame of mind long enough to do anything about its contents before the Vortex whirls and shifts and everything changes again....
to anyone and everyone that ever cared or ever had any dealings with daimonizomai it wants you all to know at this point onward it can no longer maintain sufficient grasp upon things to guarantee anything -- not that it will hear or understand you or your words, not that it will perceive them as you meant them and not that it will respond in a way that seems to make sense to you. especially the latter. if ever it offends please forgive but do not expect it to "learn" because this issue dwells in a place beyond the cognitive where it has no reach to make a cognitive realize take place or take root. to anyone it has hurt or offended please believe it bes sorry and ask your forgiveness. it bes tortured it never meant to hurt anyone else though.
to anyone and everyone that ever cared or ever had any dealings with daimonizomai it wants you all to know at this point onward it can no longer maintain sufficient grasp upon things to guarantee anything -- not that it will hear or understand you or your words, not that it will perceive them as you meant them and not that it will respond in a way that seems to make sense to you. especially the latter. if ever it offends please forgive but do not expect it to "learn" because this issue dwells in a place beyond the cognitive where it has no reach to make a cognitive realize take place or take root. to anyone it has hurt or offended please believe it bes sorry and ask your forgiveness. it bes tortured it never meant to hurt anyone else though.
