I have some serious issues. I text a friend and she let me know that she couldnt talk because she was with a friend....and I feel my stomache turn into knots. I am actually MAD at her for being with someone other than me....And not in like "Im the best and no one can be better" But in a "[bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse], She is going to move on and Ill be forgotten," How screwed up is that? I know that its part of the BPD but seriously, c'mon!! I hate these insecurities. I have this serious problem with fearing abandonment. Its sick!! I havent seen my kid in two weeks... She is with my mother while I figure out all of these meds....Honestly? she is probably better off with my mother....and THAT IS SAYING ALOT because My mother is the reason or part of the reason I am this way.
What an awesome life i lead.
Miss Pessemist
What an awesome life i lead.
Miss Pessemist
