I struggle with writing.
I have so much inside of me that needs to be released but it just sits inside of me. Every time I think the dam has been lifted the flood waters rise.
It's not even been a month since everything changed. I look around and wonder what is the purpose for anything.
Life changes in a second. You never know what the next day will hold. For me lately its hold heartache and pain. I begin to find hope and I feel its stolen from me.
I feel so cheated. The past few years have been just full of pain and misery. How was moving here any better then the hell that was Indiana?
I'm struggling with sleep. I'm afraid every morning is going to hold a voicemail message that holds bad news.
On October 13, my brother-in-law died unexpectedly. I've known him since I was around 6 years old. I have a million questions that I know are fruitless to answer. Because there are no answers.
My sister who has never had to live alone is now alone in a house they just moved into in July. I have to call her every night just to talk about whatever is on our brains.
What's next?
oh yeah the day I got back here my back went out on me. It hasn't been the same since the car accident and that was 2 1/2 years ago.
Where are happier times? When will the bad things just stop happening? Why this, why now? Out of the blue...and what's next?
I have so much inside of me that needs to be released but it just sits inside of me. Every time I think the dam has been lifted the flood waters rise.
It's not even been a month since everything changed. I look around and wonder what is the purpose for anything.
Life changes in a second. You never know what the next day will hold. For me lately its hold heartache and pain. I begin to find hope and I feel its stolen from me.
I feel so cheated. The past few years have been just full of pain and misery. How was moving here any better then the hell that was Indiana?
I'm struggling with sleep. I'm afraid every morning is going to hold a voicemail message that holds bad news.
On October 13, my brother-in-law died unexpectedly. I've known him since I was around 6 years old. I have a million questions that I know are fruitless to answer. Because there are no answers.
My sister who has never had to live alone is now alone in a house they just moved into in July. I have to call her every night just to talk about whatever is on our brains.
What's next?
oh yeah the day I got back here my back went out on me. It hasn't been the same since the car accident and that was 2 1/2 years ago.
Where are happier times? When will the bad things just stop happening? Why this, why now? Out of the blue...and what's next?