I didn't have a happy childhood. It was filled with a lot of darkness and violence. A lot of abuse and not a lot of love. Very backward.
There is a lot of baggage I carry around with me every day because of my upbringing. It still handicapps me in many ways but slowly God is healing my past. He is using things in the present to comfort me.
Today, my children and I built a snowman. My very first snowman - ever! At first my heart ached when I looked at him (the snowman), the little girl inside of me ached because I never got to build one. BUT I looked down at my children's faces beaming and I laughed. God is healing my heart. In that moment I felt Him staring at me, smiling.
I know this post will sound so silly to some, as if God would love me so much to bring joy into my day through a snowman. Sounds absurd really but it happened.
Thank you Father, for so much, even cute snowmen who smile back at me.
There is a lot of baggage I carry around with me every day because of my upbringing. It still handicapps me in many ways but slowly God is healing my past. He is using things in the present to comfort me.
Today, my children and I built a snowman. My very first snowman - ever! At first my heart ached when I looked at him (the snowman), the little girl inside of me ached because I never got to build one. BUT I looked down at my children's faces beaming and I laughed. God is healing my heart. In that moment I felt Him staring at me, smiling.
I know this post will sound so silly to some, as if God would love me so much to bring joy into my day through a snowman. Sounds absurd really but it happened.
Thank you Father, for so much, even cute snowmen who smile back at me.
