I can't help but think about what ifs. They are dangerous to think about, you know? bc you can get caught up in the what-could-have-beens rather than the what-ares.
I used to be a biology major, heading towards becoming a vet (large animal). But then I experienced a "crash and burn" in spring 2006, end of freshman year, and was hospitalized twice in a month, for a total of 17 days (I think). I couldn't finish my exams and had to take an incomplete, losing the credits from four or five classes. I also lost the impetus to continue in that field of study - my parents, sister, and then-boyfriend urged me to consider other majors and future career fields. (Those two hospitalizations 2 years ago exactly were on top of my first hospitalization in November/December 2005, so it's not like it was a one time thing... it was consistently at the end of the semester, finals time, with massive amounts of stress due to my science classes.)
So I considered other fields. That fall I was scheduled to take 12 credits, three English classes (a lit course [which I can't remember], Medieval English lit, and intro to poetry writing) and intro to psych. Well, the professors of the first two English courses advised me to not take their courses due to the difficulty, so I dropped them and stuck with the two intro classes, testing out the waters and seeing if I wanted to be an English major or a psych major.
The intro to poetry writing class went fantastically, and I loved the professor, but didn't really want to "ruin" my love of English/lit/poetry by making it into a job (bc what jobs can you successfully get with English other than teaching?). The same went for intro to psych - but, bc I loved the material more and thought it had more potential for a career, I chose to be a psych major.
So here I am, a junior psych major, trying to figure out what to do for an internship and then a job. I am on the counseling track, bc originally I wanted to counsel college-age kids & adults who are struggling with EDs. However, my T has recently suggested that I look for another area of interest, bc I am still massively triggered by ED-related stuff and SI also tends to co-occur with EDs and I am triggered by that still as well. While I am interested quite a lot in EDs and have done term papers on them and article reviews and things like that (and have also read tons of books about them, and been through treatment bc of one, heh), I think that Lori is right... at least for an internship I ought to look for something less "bad for me."
So perhaps a psych ward? except I have to/should avoid the one where I was a patient 2 and 2 1/2 years ago. That narrows it down to only one where I would want to work (there's another, but it's at a badly reputed hos where I would very much dislike working). But we'll see. I have time to look for an internship.
Jobs though. I don't know. But I definitely have time for that!
...
So that's a little more about me.
If you care, that is.
I used to be a biology major, heading towards becoming a vet (large animal). But then I experienced a "crash and burn" in spring 2006, end of freshman year, and was hospitalized twice in a month, for a total of 17 days (I think). I couldn't finish my exams and had to take an incomplete, losing the credits from four or five classes. I also lost the impetus to continue in that field of study - my parents, sister, and then-boyfriend urged me to consider other majors and future career fields. (Those two hospitalizations 2 years ago exactly were on top of my first hospitalization in November/December 2005, so it's not like it was a one time thing... it was consistently at the end of the semester, finals time, with massive amounts of stress due to my science classes.)
So I considered other fields. That fall I was scheduled to take 12 credits, three English classes (a lit course [which I can't remember], Medieval English lit, and intro to poetry writing) and intro to psych. Well, the professors of the first two English courses advised me to not take their courses due to the difficulty, so I dropped them and stuck with the two intro classes, testing out the waters and seeing if I wanted to be an English major or a psych major.
The intro to poetry writing class went fantastically, and I loved the professor, but didn't really want to "ruin" my love of English/lit/poetry by making it into a job (bc what jobs can you successfully get with English other than teaching?). The same went for intro to psych - but, bc I loved the material more and thought it had more potential for a career, I chose to be a psych major.
So here I am, a junior psych major, trying to figure out what to do for an internship and then a job. I am on the counseling track, bc originally I wanted to counsel college-age kids & adults who are struggling with EDs. However, my T has recently suggested that I look for another area of interest, bc I am still massively triggered by ED-related stuff and SI also tends to co-occur with EDs and I am triggered by that still as well. While I am interested quite a lot in EDs and have done term papers on them and article reviews and things like that (and have also read tons of books about them, and been through treatment bc of one, heh), I think that Lori is right... at least for an internship I ought to look for something less "bad for me."
So perhaps a psych ward? except I have to/should avoid the one where I was a patient 2 and 2 1/2 years ago. That narrows it down to only one where I would want to work (there's another, but it's at a badly reputed hos where I would very much dislike working). But we'll see. I have time to look for an internship.
Jobs though. I don't know. But I definitely have time for that!
...
So that's a little more about me.
If you care, that is.
