2010

maybe it's a bit early to be thinking about next year but I really hope next year is a better one

I've had a great year in some ways God has been very good to me

In other ways I have let God down and people

I really have messed up bad on a couple of things, letting my anger get the best of me

I'm not an angry person but emotionally this last year has been hard at times in ways I didnt anticipate and my frustration with my situation got the better of me a couple of times and I wish I could change those times.

so now unfortunately there is some fallout from those times.

I dont know where God is in that
yet

I do know He is a merciful God but He also is Holy and Just and there's only so far you can push God

I have been trying though this last year
and dealing with spiritual baggage from my past which also wreaked havoc and brought me to my knees in agony this year too

One thing I do know is that God has brought me through failures and all

somehow He still accepts me as His child
He knows my heart

may God forgive me and help me
and somehow use this broken child