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I feel sick, not physical but spiritual and emotional. want to throw up.

I dont know why God allows some things
why God looks on, I know they break His heart, I have no doubt of His love but some things still make me sick to my stomach



so many other things too
I have in my own way destroyed so much good
been used and just through being in pain and having lack of wisdom and inability to curb what I was doing have destroyed much


I feel sick about all that too


God have mercy on me