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Will the Lord give me another chance?

Discussion in 'Christian Advice' started by xhayatox, Sep 22, 2011.

  1. xhayatox

    xhayatox New Member

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    I was recently hired at Century 21. This week, we were assigned to complete 4 days of training. I successfully completed 3 days, but on the last day I was not able to attend due to certain circumstances. I called them afterwards, and explained the situation. They told me that the training is mandatory, and I am required to complete all 4 days. They also stated that there is no way to reschedule the training because its only every 2 weeks or so, and they aren't sure when the next training is. So now they told me they are taking me out of the system, and I have to reapply all over again, and complete the training from scratch. Plus there is no guarantee of me getting the training again so I am really upset at this point.

    When I had the job, I complained about it and took it for granted. Now that I technically don't have it anymore, I am truly upset and wish that I wasn't so naive. I realize my mistake, and I should have more thankful for it. Is there any chance that the Lord may let me redeem myself and give me another chance? I messed up, and I admit it. I have spent the last few days in massive pain, and I hope that God can see my strength and please give me another chance at this job. I am sorry, dear Lord. Please allow me the chance to redeem myself. I repent. I repent.
     
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    SoldierOfSoul Senior Veteran

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    It sounds like you made a really bad impression...sorry but it's true, there are some things you just don't miss.

    Just try and focus on what your current duties are and the time will come when you will get another chance, next time, you MUST attend.
     
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    xhayatox New Member

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    I sincerely hope so. I am truly apologetic and I do fully take responsibility for my actions and I was very ungrateful and I should have been more appreciative. Many people in the world don't even have a job, and yet I seemed to complain about every aspect of it. That wasn't fair. Now I see how empty I feel without this job. I feel like it gave me something to look forward too during the day. Now, I am back to my mundane life, sitting home doing nothing. I am so sorry Father. Please allow me to get another chance to redeem myself. I promise I will continue to work hard, in your name and help my family and do whatever I can. Please, Father. I truly acknowledge my mistake, and I know that how I acted was inappropriate.
     
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    The thing is, I didn't miss it intentionally. The night I was supposed to attend, I had a huge panic attack, I felt like I was going to die. I literally had a terrible breakdown. I am trying to forget about it. I was honestly going to attend work that day, If It wasn't for this breakdown and all this that has happened.

    I truly did not plan to miss that last day of work. I just had the worst panic attack, and If you take a look at my other thread, you will see what happened. It's just such a misfortune. I wonder if I really deserve all the pain I've been experiencing these past few days..
     
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    eachallberg Early Christian

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    The Lord will always give another chance, but Century 21 may not.
    Serve wholeheartedly, as if you were serving the Lord, not men.

    Complaining is not healthy, and don't worry about that job.
    Why are you so upset about a job that enables you to work for things that spoil?
    Focus not on this world, because it is a evil illusion.

    Store your treasure where it can't be destroyed or taken, by doing the work of God. Trusting the One he sent, and being concerned about the least of these people that are among us.

    "Watch out! Be on your guard against all kinds of greed; a man's life does not consist in the abundance of his possessions."
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    Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.

    Peace be to you.
     
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    SoldierOfSoul Senior Veteran

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    Maybe you should try and find a job with less responsibility for the time being, if you are having panic attacks in anticipation for a job, the job itself is probably too much for you right now.
     
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    Well, it's not the job that gave me a panic attack. It's just.. that night I started hearing unusual sensations in my ears as I was laying awake going to bed, and stuff like this isn't normal for me, so I started freaking out and I couldn't understand what was going on. And since that night, I've been experiencing these weird sensations and It's a long story but due to that happening, it cost me a job. I don't know. I feel like I am being attacked by the devil or something. I was perfectly fine that night, but after that I've been a train wreck. I've been sleep deprived, not eating normally, and all of this crazy stuff. My moms friend came over yesterday and performed Reiki on me. (Japanese spiritual healing) I believe it did help me some. I started eating again normally today and the ringing has diminished slightly. I don't know why or how it started..
     
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    SoldierOfSoul Senior Veteran

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    This is one of the problems. These type of "spiritual" practices are not biblical and they can invite demonic activity into your life. Do you believe in Jesus?
     
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    Yes I believe in Jesus. As she was performing the Reiki, she was reciting verses from the Bible to heal me. I dont see how that can be demonic at all. It felt very refreshing and cleansing.
     
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    Reiki is a form of force healing, or chi healing through the palms, it is a mystical pagan healing technique based on false religious practices. God heals us, not someones chi.

    You are obviously being attacked by spiritual forces, you should not open your mind to questionable spiritual practices seeking help. Jesus is your healer and deliverer.
     
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    Oh great now you've made me extremely paranoid......Oh man. My heart is not in good condition and now I don't know what to say even to something like that. Now I'm afraid something even worse is going to happen. Great..
     
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    I'm not trying to make you scared or anything, but you do need to be aware, Jesus is God, He is our everything, you need to seek after Him and now in your time of need even more so. Another reason these things have happened may be God trying to reach you and bring you closer to Him.

    Our God is a jealous God, He wants us as His own and He has made some things forbidden, seeking spiritual help outside of His providence is one of those things that are forbidden. Just give your worries to Christ friend, He loves you and cares for you and He desires to have a relationship with you for eternity.
     
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    But the reason why I went to my moms friend for Reiki is because my prayers didn't seem to be getting through to god. My suffering has not stopped. I don't ever have any peace or joy within my heart. It's like, I never see joy in my life anymore. What am I even supposed to do then? Then, after everything that has transpired over the course of this week, has absolutely taken a huge toll on me mentally. I feel like my heart is about to give out from all this mental stress. I don't know what else to do even. You wouldn't even begin to imagine the level of mental stress I have to endure. I feel like I am getting delusional. I really need the Lord besides me in this moment in my life. I don't know who else to turn too. I acknowledge God as my Lord and Savior, and I love him. It's just my situation in life currently is terrible. What am I supposed to do? How much more of my life is going to waste away until something good happens?
     
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    Just continue seeking the Lord xhay, do you have a church family? If not, you need one. Start doing the things Christ told us to do, read the word and apply it's promises to your life, trust in Jesus over all things. Jesus loves you and died for you and cares for you now and forever. There is nothing in your life that He does not see, He knows your problems and concerns and He will always be faithful. Do not turn from Him so easily into falseness when something doesn't go your way. God will not forsake you, He loves you and if you ever doubt this, look at the cross.
     
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    It's just... Why does he allow me to suffer like this... My mental state is not in good condition. My biggest fear is that I am growing delusional from spending so much time at home. This job that I had, really kept me out of the house and I was thankful for that. It immersed me around people, and for the first time I felt "in control". Then three nights before, I suffered from that huge panic attack I mentioned, and have been experiencing strange ringing sensations in my ears that have thrown me into a state of panic and I am trying to recover from all this. I just feel overwhelmed. Please pray for my well-being. I beg you. This just isn't normal to go through at such a young age. (18) I don't go to church, but I know I must. And i will. I just want this all to go away. I just want the Lord to heal my afflictions. Please, Lord attend to my cries and heal my suffering I beg you.. Please give my life some perspective. Some smiles. Some laughter. Some joy. I am tired of crying..Please wipe away my tears Father. Please heal my sorrows.
     
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    Friend you are 18, don't let these things get to you, jobs will come and go, but your relationship with Christ must remain constant and sure throughout your life.

    Seriously, get into the word, I know it sounds like a cliche', but it is the truth. The word will refresh your mind and spirit and will renew your strength. It's not that the bible is magical or anything, it's that God works through it to speak to you and guide you. His word is alive and powerful and it is what we as Christians live by.

    Here are some verses to get you started:

    How can a young man keep his way pure? By living according to your word. (Psalm 119:9)

    Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is--his good, pleasing and perfect will.(Romans 12:2)

    let us draw near with a true heart in fulness of faith, having our hearts sprinkled from an evil conscience: and having our body washed with pure water,(Hebrews 10:22)

    For God has not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.(2 Timothy 1:7)

    Brother don't sweat the things in this world, God loves you and wants you as His child, Jesus bled and died so that you could be forgiven by the God of the universe, you are loved and cherished by the Maker of all things. Trust in this God.
     
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    Thank you very much for your concerns and support. It is very comforting. The thing is, this job is something I worked for to get for 3 months. Without it, I am back to sitting home and losing my mind. The more I sit home, the more I will continue to grow weaker and frail. My life is in shambles and I just took advantage of this job, and should have appreciated it more. I actually read verses everyday. I own two bibles, and I try to read them every morning. Ever since this recent incident in my life happened, I have been trying to get closer to God because I feel very weak and I can only hope he will heal my afflictions and drown away my sorrows. I just need some stability in my life. My mom is very dissappointed in me because I lost this job, and I feel even worse right now. I just don't know what I'm doing anymore. I try so hard to be a good person but I end up failing everyone. I don't know what I am anymore. I have too much mental strain, and I just need to get my life in order and I pray that the Lord will guide me. I feel like I am abandoned.. I just need God in my life right now so much... I am just so alone. I am not happy..
     
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    Make a point to go to church this Sunday, one thing you yourself have realized is that you will not get any better sitting around thinking about how bad things are. You need to get involved, or at least for the time being, attend a church that preaches the cross.

    You don't have a job right now...so what? I was without work for over a year after I was saved when I was 23. I spent the year coming of the drugs that I had been on for the 5 years prior, I studied the word, read books and got close to God and repented from a life of sin. God changed me during that time and I am thankful for it.

    The free time that you do have now, use to the glory of God, you need to seek to know Him as your Personal Saviour and God. He will reveal Himself to you more and more, but you must seek Him.

    "But if from there you seek the LORD your God, you will find him if you look for him with all your heart and with all your soul."
    (Deuteronomy 4:29)

    Really I cannot emphasize enough the importance of growth in your relationship with God through Christ, it is the only thing of importance and needs to be your sole priority right now. Continue looking for a job and trust that God has one for you but do not lose sight of the goal for your life: to serve God in truth.

    Eventually, probably very soon, you will be apart of the workforce and you will not have the time that you have now to seek God. Use it wisely.
     
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    I just dont understand what went wrong. I just spent the last 3 months looking for work, and I finally found something and it was such a relief. Now I am back to square 1. You must understand how terrible I feel. I feel very ashamed, and upset that I have brought such great disappointment to everybody. I want my family to be proud of me, and I want the Lord to be happy as well. I don't know if my job will give me another chance to redeem myself but I certainly hope so. I do believe you're right about church though. I will try my best to attend some this week. I just need some stability in my life.. You must understand. Life is so short. I can't keep spending all this time like this. I need to help my family out. This job was a great start and now that i may not have it anymore, It's just terrible. I feel like a screw-up. I just only hope God allows me to make up for it. Please..
     
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