It would be interesting to compare notes. Do you think G-d spoke to you then, are you not sure, or do you think He didn't?
Since you asked, here is what was revealed to me, in a thousand places and in a thousand voices:
Insofar as there is a God, His testimony is in the universe all around us. It is in the stars above, in the earth under our feet, in every living cell and every law of nature. He who created all the wonders of the cosmos also blessed us with precious gifts: He gave us eyes with which to see, and minds with which to think, and hearts with which to feel. He must want us to use them.
The god of the bible is not that God. The biblical god expects us to accept without question, and to defer to an ancient book instead of the evidence that surrounds us. The biblical god tells us that the earth does not move, and that it has ends, that it's shaped so that standing on a high mountain would enable you to see every kingdom in the world, that there is a mass of water sitting on top of the sky,
underneath of which are the stars and moon. The biblical god doesn't know that tsunamis exist, that insects have six legs, or that rabbits don't chew cud.
These are exactly the kind of misconceptions that iron-age tribesmen would have. But the God of creation would obviously know better.
The God who made us gave us hearts with which to know good from evil, and blessed us with a boundless potential for love and compassion. The god of the bible is cruel and capricious; he punishes unborn children with death if their mothers are unfaithful to their husbands, and orders his servants to butcher women and children en masse. The biblical god lies about his nature constantly, claiming at once to be merciful and slow to anger, then declaring himself wrathful and unforgiving. He tells us his mind never changes, then he changes it repeatedly.
If I were to ignore the screamingly obvious explanation that the bible is merely written by ordinary men, I would be rejecting all the gifts that the God of creation has granted me. He gave me common sense, surely He expects me to use it.
I have seen countless apologetics struggle to convince themselves of insane rationalizations. They resort to redefining words at whim, or inserting them into God's mouth, stretching and twisting the scripture like a contortionist trying to fit into a suitcase. When the text is unsalvagable, they claim it is metaphorical. When the metaphor is unpalatable, they claim it is literal. Either they are convinced that they alone hold the key to the bible's meanings, even as they contradict themselves and each other, or they cast the net of ambiguity so wide that none of their claims warrant certainty.
If God Almighty, who wove the fabric of the universe and set the stars alight, wished to communicate with us, he could do far better than to leave us the piecemeal remains of a collection of contradictory Levantine tribal law and inconsistent third-hand accounts of miracles like those that have been claimed in nearly every culture throughout history.
The terrifying and beautiful truth is that God didn't leave us an instruction manual. He gave us something better: The ability to think for ourselves.
And that's all.
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