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MY DEAR SISTER,My question is: What can I do to encourage him in a way that is firm about my needs but supportive of his position in Christ? Explain it to me like I am a child: How do I help him?
Where is the line between wifely submission in Christ and neglecting His Temple (my body/mind/soul)?
Im looking for some feedback and supportive Scripture regarding wifely submission. I'm not intending to start a theological debate on the subject at hand, but examine how it applies to my life as the Lord has convicted me.
There have been two recurring issues in my life which the Lord has done great work in me, especially in the past year. 1. He has calmed my dominating nature in my marriage and has convicted me to let my husband lead, so that I may joyfully follow. 2. He has addressed my self-neglect habits and has convicted me to take care of myself in a way that reflects His presence in me. This includes eating nourishing food, addressing health issues with a professional, paying attention to the needs of my family, the list goes on.
I am experiencing a rather large amount of stress right now and I constantly give it over to the Lord. The stress does not plague me with unstoppable anxiety anymore because of how the Lord has reformed my tendency to overreact to circumstances, and because I have psychiatric support. I suffer from PTSD, but thats a whole other story. I want to focus on whats going on right now. I would say that I approach most situations with a fairly rational peace, so I dont want you to think that I am running around like a maniac pulling my hair out and driving people crazy, because that is usually not the case.
The sources of my stress right now are:
1. I work full-time and my husband stays home with our 18-month-old son. I know that this arrangement works for some people, but it doesnt seem to be working for us because:
a. I am a homemaker, so when I come home from work I cook and clean, so I dont have much of a chance to rest. My husband insists that I relax, but I find housework soothing and literally cannot stand a messy house I find it unsanitary and it provokes my anxiety. Theres a bit of a controlling nature in that dynamic, but I think that it is pretty typical for motivated homemakers.
b. I am in charge of the administrative aspects of maintaining the household: answering phone calls, paying bills, tracking finances, etc. This is a duty that my husband has given me and I feel no qualms about it whatsoever. But it is hard to balance the responsibilities with work.
c. My husband is antsy. He does an excellent job at home with our son, but he feels the drive to get out of the house. He wants to work, but cant seem to find a job. We live in a very rural, poor area, so it is hard for him to find work, especially since 95% of the men up here do the kind of work he does manual labor.
2. We live in an isolated, very cold, remote area that is 9-10 hours away from our families.
a. I have sore muscles just about all the time due to structural deformities and I probably have fibromyalgia, too. The extreme cold doesnt help. Some nights/early mornings, it goes down to 20, 30, 40 below zero.
b. I would really like to be geographically closer to our families, for tangible love and support. Plus, I personally feel selfish for taking their grandson so far away, but my husband disagrees with this since his mental well-being is much improved in a very rural area. Im not talking about farm country I mean wilderness expanses that are miles and miles in radius.
c. We need to move somewhere since our lease has expired and is nonrenewable.
i. I want to move to a warmer, friendlier part of the state. My husband will go but isnt totally thrilled.
ii. I really want to go to live with/near our families for a bit in our home state so that we can recuperate from the below stressor. My husband absolutely refuses to go.
3. We are in a terrible financial situation.
a. We recently purchased a used car and I got a loan from my bank for $10,500 and paid $500 down from a line of credit. Within 10 days of purchase, the car broke down. We ended up paying $4,000 for repairs. Luckily, our families helped us out with that expense. However, ever since we bought the car, we are falling deeper and deeper into debt. We have maxed out 2 credit cards at $1,000 each and I still have student loans totaling about $20,000.
b. I only make $900 every 2 weeks and this is not covering our current expenses. We live in a cheap place right now and I dont know how we will afford the inevitable increase in rent. Whether we stay in this area or move somewhere warmer in the state, we will be beyond strapped for cash.
c. If we moved back to be near our families, my husband would have a guaranteed job in the family business making at least $150 a day. I mentioned this to him and he was literally offended that I am even considering it. He is much happier in a remote area like this one, and there is nowhere quite like this in our home state. I told him that we can just stay there a while to recuperate and then come back, but he wont hear it.
By the way, he is saved. Our marriage was very much in shambles before, but the Lord has worked on both of us a whole lot and we are now closer than ever.
My husband knows how I am feeling and recognizes the severity of our situation. I want to submit to him, but the strain is gradually becoming overwhelming. I really need prayer, support, and advice.