Good question. I don't know, but I'll start writing and see where it goes.
Things I am passionate about, think about, pursue, hindered from, want it so bad that it consumes me, working for, would give anything for.
celebrate life now as it is now, who I am now, with who I have now.
see times to love and be brave enough to do it.
let people in, know who to trust or not to, and keep boundaries in my life as well.
see the beauty in life and people and the world
see people as smart, beautiful, special; see good in people.
work on friendships and new opportunities to connect and bond and love.
let people inside and have intimacy--but also healthy distance. neither extreme.
be in a place in case someone wants to share themselves, know me, and Jesus I know.
be in a place to see opportunities to make lives better and accept them making my life better.
grow in faith and know Christ better. be close with God Jesus and be like him.
work on self-improvement projects
get over fears of serving people, learn how, and see opportunities.
be more kind, friendly, especially with those I don't get along with
face some inner emotions and memories and issues I put off
be more creative in the kitchen.
do more artwork and writings.
try to focus more on the positive and let the negative go
be at peace in the middle of war--and know when to fight or not and do as I should.
do some of the basics I ignore like get my car looked at or just not veg.
live life and goodness without turning off strong emotions that I don't always enjoy or point the right way.
live in spite of fear, anger, sadness, and not let happy times lead me away.
hope for a safe girl intimate in my life, but not impress or earn her or try to get something.
live with unknowing, being in the dark, being wrong, making mistakes, being lesser in church and world.
enjoy that so many people are so blessed even when I struggle
do the good that is uncomfortable, and not do the bad that is comfortable.
accept that some things in life simply are and do not have someone to blame.
not try to get anything from people--even if it is something good we should want.
listen more.
keep true to myself at times when someone could reject me or do something against me.
love God.
pray more.
enjoy God now and look to the future.
love my enemies and pray for them too.
stay strong, not hide, and exist along with the dark ugliness that comes in all of this and life.
see we are all a mixture of good and bad. life is a mixture. and not focus on one.
forgive people when they make mistakes and not push them out permanently.
not try to get people to like me, accept me, be impressed, love me--even though these are good to want.
look for more opportunities to praise others, give, help, hug, spend time together.
and be ok being alone at times without getting addicted to it.
live knowing it is ok to be different, individuals, it is ok to be you and me.
not judge anyone including myself.
be proud of people and tell them.
accept not knowing what to do or believe, and not force myself to make all decisions right now or ever.
keep trying to see the light in darkness and add more to this list as I see.
not close my eyes or act on temptations.
I feel like the guy terminator at the end of Terminator 3 sometimes when he's been rewired. But this is my list--and I know some of this comes easy to some of you. And that is really cool. I just want to be there too.