What about when you are happy?

[Gwen'sMom]

I sometimes get the urge to cut when I am happy. Does anyone else ever feel like this? Why on earth would this go through my mind when I am happy?

 

[Soulwings]

I used to. It was the whole thing about any emotion being too overwhelming for me to handle, I think.

 

[Gwen'sMom]

I used to. It was the whole thing about any emotion being too overwhelming for me to handle, I think.

That makes sense Soulwings. I even get the urge when I am in my counselling sessions and everyone is talking about their problems. Its almost like "yeah, well I cut myself to make my problems go away so there!"

 

[Soulwings]

Yeah. But really, cutting doesn't make your problems go away. It only makes them worse. I know that sometimes it feels like you can't handle life and all of its stresses without cutting, but once you've stopped cutting, you realise that there are less stresses to life than you thought, because cutting itself was a major stressor. It's so weird. But anyway, that's a little off-topic.

 

[oneandlonely]

I used to. It was the whole thing about any emotion being too overwhelming for me to handle, I think.

Thats how it is with me sis.

 

[0145xyz]

hmmm, maybe because it's a constant in your life?routine is comforting, if your used to cutting a lot even if it was caused by sadness, once you feel happy you might still want to stick to the routine. Subconsiously thinking anyways. I think that's one of the main problems I had when quitting smoking, I wasn't physically addicted, I wasn't even smoking around other smokers, it was just I was so used to smoking that it felt wierd to go a while w/o it. Like, I'd get involved in something and then Id be like, "oh my, it's been _ hours since I've had a smoke, I need to go smoke" even if i wasn't even craving it. (comparison, wasn't needing to cut to help with emotions) this is just a theory

 

[Finn88]

k, growin up was pretty tough for me, as was pretty miserable as a kid. There is a lot of depression in my family, i was bullied at school, then my parents split up-i had a lot to deal with. I moved away from the town where i grew up to stay with my dad and one of my 4 brothers. i got a job, new friends and got involved in loads of really good Christian circles...what i struggle to understand the most about my SI is-why did i only start 1 year after my life changed for the better?

 

[jesuschickseven]

That's because often in bad situations your brain takes you into survival mode, and you become numb to emotional pain. You bury it all deep inside of you and it builds up and builds up and comes back to bite you later in life.
Drag your issues out in the open and deal with them so you can move on

 

[jesuschickseven]

By the way everybody, I survived basic training and am now in AIT it's, really nice here (and I have a computer now...) Love you all...