"He that shall blaspheme against the Holy Ghost hath never forgiveness." - Mark 3:29
Before I came back to Christianity, I was first an agnostic/atheist and then dabbled a bit in Paganism. I was confused and looking for the Divine Being that I so desperately needed. I have found that in Christ, but before I hadn't.
I grew up in a charismatic, non-denominational church that slowly pushed me away from God. It preached Hell constantly, and the church was full of liars and hypocrites and gossips (not saying I am not any of those things at some times, but this was constant, even the pastor and his wife took part).
I've read in different commentaries that the unforgivable sin only speaks of those who continually reject Christ, like the Pharisees, who saw all the miracles he performed and they attributed it to Satan helping him cast out the demons. In my agnostic/atheist stage, I said some pretty rotten things about God, because I didn't know his true love. I couldn't reconcile the evilness in the OT with a good God.
I keep getting this nagging that what I did was unforgivable. I "knew" about Jesus, but I denied him. But then part of me thinks, "well, you didn't know the true Jesus, the Biblical Jesus."
''For if we go on sinning willfully after receiving the knowledge of truth, there no longer remains a sacrifice for sins'' (Hebrews 10:26). Wasn't I doing just that, though?
Anyone else struggle with this? Thanks.
Before I came back to Christianity, I was first an agnostic/atheist and then dabbled a bit in Paganism. I was confused and looking for the Divine Being that I so desperately needed. I have found that in Christ, but before I hadn't.
I grew up in a charismatic, non-denominational church that slowly pushed me away from God. It preached Hell constantly, and the church was full of liars and hypocrites and gossips (not saying I am not any of those things at some times, but this was constant, even the pastor and his wife took part).
I've read in different commentaries that the unforgivable sin only speaks of those who continually reject Christ, like the Pharisees, who saw all the miracles he performed and they attributed it to Satan helping him cast out the demons. In my agnostic/atheist stage, I said some pretty rotten things about God, because I didn't know his true love. I couldn't reconcile the evilness in the OT with a good God.
I keep getting this nagging that what I did was unforgivable. I "knew" about Jesus, but I denied him. But then part of me thinks, "well, you didn't know the true Jesus, the Biblical Jesus."
''For if we go on sinning willfully after receiving the knowledge of truth, there no longer remains a sacrifice for sins'' (Hebrews 10:26). Wasn't I doing just that, though?
Anyone else struggle with this? Thanks.