I have been on M-eslom for seven years.(morphine 12 hr time release capsules.)I found my dose 40 mg twice daily, early,and have not increased it over that period.
I use marijuana on doctors consultation for muscular spasms,as well as appetite,i could take prosac or valium,but the marijuana seems to do the function of taking care of my depression well enough that i dont need these to counteract any deprssive symptoms.
This has served me in good stead from the effects of seven missing discs in my back,as well as traumatic damage that occured during my working career.(my sacroiliac is fairly toasted.)
Because the discs are gone,the back bones(vertebrae)grind my nerves in between them mercilessly.This is a 24/7 scenario.and there have been times when without medication,i have been close to insane from the agony of it.(I wrap a bedsheet tightly around my rib cage and hold it tight while breathing in and out as gently and shallowly as possible so as not to disturb things .)
Yes, i guess i am addicted to the morphine,but at least i am able to live a half normal life.Without it i very likely would have taken the high dive long ago.....(just kidding NOT!)
The stigma ivolved in using opiates for pain,the social BS,is worse than the habit for me.....
People who suffer many different types of injuries and conditions where they experience long term debilitating pain,dont nessessarily look very injured.And when they are properly medicated, dont appear to be severly in distress.Therefore the average person looks at them and finds it hard to believe that they are actually in need of the medication.(i dont blame them,i do it to myself and others.)Its natural to wonder about these things,because we really are sinful in nature.Like it or not we constantly judge people we dont hardly know very harshly indeed.
As a result chronic pain sufferers are never out from ubder the microscope.Especially those who have to rely on opiates for long term relief.They are always running into those who sneer and decry them as junkies and wimps.
The hypocracy is nowhere more evident than in church.(any church)
Christians it seems have a harder time accepting that there are somethings that no matter how faithfull the idividual has tried to be,The Holy Spirit will not heal.
Why did God allow satan to torture Job?why do bad things happen to relatively good people?Only God has the answer to this....
In the meantime,i am tired of being treated as if i had no faith and thus am not healed.
In order to live as reasonably normal life as possible ,I take opiates.They by no means leave me flying in some junkie seventh heaven,and by no means mask all the pain.That this is my cross to bear is evident.However,it gets very sickening to the soul to go to church and have the congregation treat you like you were a leper.
The fact remains that for long term chronic pain,of some types,using opiates for relief is the best all round solution.
Untill our pharmacopia is better stocked to deal with pain of all types,it will remain as the proven painkiller with the least side effects.
The idea that you will become a screaming junkie seeing snakes and having nightmares without it is very much hype.The reality of being in severe pain in the first place takes most of the euphoria associated with their use away.When in real disabling agony,what choice is there?I assure you that there is a lot of misinformed opinion in the christian,(straight as well)community that is totally unfounded ignorance.
The definition of chronic pain means that one is in agony much of the time without medication and treatment.
There are a lot worse things to be suffered in terms of side effects of pain medicines that are new on the market-non narcotics.
If you suffer the symptoms then you have a right to seek relief from whatever source that helps.the rest is social bs.