I'm a male in my early 30's who became a christian a year and a half ago. Prior to that, I had been living a homosexual life for most of my adult life. Since become a christian, I've been struggling to control these urges because I really do want to be a good christian and live my life in a way that will be pleasing to God. In some ways, I've made a great deal of progress; I haven't gone to any gay clubs or pride parades or gay event for the last year and a half. I haven't been dating or had any boyfriends since I became a christian. However, in other ways I feel as though I haven't improved at all. Every time I watch a movie or T.V. show with a good-looking actor, I start feeling very attracted and it makes me want to go out on a date again. That also happens every time I pass by an attractive guy on the street or on the bus. Sometimes it gets to the point where as soon as I leave church, I start wondering if there are going to be any cute guys on the bus or at wherever I'm going to have lunch at, which makes me feel extremely guilty because I know I shouldn't be having that mentality. Even though I've been able to resist the temptation of dating guys, there are times that I can't stop thinking about how much I miss having a boyfriend. Can anybody please provide me with any insight/advice/guidance as to how to better control these urges and keep these thoughts out of my mind? I've prayed a lot about this and begged God to help me with this struggle. I'm afraid to mention this to my preacher or to any of the members of my congregation because I fear being ostracized and rejected. If it was any other sin that I was struggling with, I'd ask them for help. But because homosexuality is such a divisive and controversial issue, I'm very hesitant to seek help with this problem from anyone at my church. Please help, I really do want to be a good christian but I don't know what to do anymore...