I don't know what to say,
I have been planing on my escape to God for sometime now. This crush has taken a toll on me.
I didn't go to work today and I am planning on quitting, no this has nothing to do with that crush but this new girl who hates me cause I am sweet looking, same old same old.
I am super lonely, I am sure that you all can tell the way I am online so much.
I have been denied puplic transportation cause of the distance that I live at.
I don't feel safe in the neighborhood and even if I did where would I go, to 7/11 no that is not place to socialize. I agree when people say that I def. need to make more friends, THAT IS A MUST!!!!!
I have said said this before all the churches near me have ignored my email's and phone calls, so that is a no go.
My only offline friend and I are fighting constently cause she does not want to leave this home cause of her crush on that Russian guy and the refusese to deal with change.
I have been in this situation long enough.
I would have downloaded skype long ago but my little computer only has 1g of ram in it and it alreay uses 70% of memory as it is.
I will NOT go to a mental home cause in this state they treat you like crap.
<staff edit> I have been thinking about this, it just seems that God will not help anymore.
Thank you for videos and prayers and advice but for some reason it never helped, it will never take over the pain of loneliness that I am feeling and the huge rejection of that stupid crush of mine.
YES Loved33 is very right that dumb crush is a simple reminder of my parents, chasing after someone who just does not want me!
THE PAIN is too much to bare, I am going to contact the Pope or his assistant via email to see if I can get the green light (as in def. assurance) for me to be with God as in my way to be with God.
LONELINESS IS THE WORST!
Many prayers to you all
PLEASE DON"T HATE ME!!! PLEASE I had to get this out, this is eating me up so badly. I HURT SO BADLY
MODS PLEASE know that I am sorry if I posted anything that may have been too much as in a trigger, PLEASE FORGIVE ME.
I have been planing on my escape to God for sometime now. This crush has taken a toll on me.
I didn't go to work today and I am planning on quitting, no this has nothing to do with that crush but this new girl who hates me cause I am sweet looking, same old same old.
I am super lonely, I am sure that you all can tell the way I am online so much.
I have been denied puplic transportation cause of the distance that I live at.
I don't feel safe in the neighborhood and even if I did where would I go, to 7/11 no that is not place to socialize. I agree when people say that I def. need to make more friends, THAT IS A MUST!!!!!
I have said said this before all the churches near me have ignored my email's and phone calls, so that is a no go.
My only offline friend and I are fighting constently cause she does not want to leave this home cause of her crush on that Russian guy and the refusese to deal with change.
I have been in this situation long enough.
I would have downloaded skype long ago but my little computer only has 1g of ram in it and it alreay uses 70% of memory as it is.
I will NOT go to a mental home cause in this state they treat you like crap.
<staff edit> I have been thinking about this, it just seems that God will not help anymore.
Thank you for videos and prayers and advice but for some reason it never helped, it will never take over the pain of loneliness that I am feeling and the huge rejection of that stupid crush of mine.
YES Loved33 is very right that dumb crush is a simple reminder of my parents, chasing after someone who just does not want me!
THE PAIN is too much to bare, I am going to contact the Pope or his assistant via email to see if I can get the green light (as in def. assurance) for me to be with God as in my way to be with God.
LONELINESS IS THE WORST!
Many prayers to you all
PLEASE DON"T HATE ME!!! PLEASE I had to get this out, this is eating me up so badly. I HURT SO BADLY
MODS PLEASE know that I am sorry if I posted anything that may have been too much as in a trigger, PLEASE FORGIVE ME.
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