Hi, newbie here but really hoping to gain insight advice and prayer. Sorry this is long.
My wife of 7 years and I have been struggling for a while now. She was diagnosed with depression almost 20 years ago, and I knew this going in to our marriage.
After our first child was born the post-pardom depression got really bad, suicidal bad. Her mother, stayed with us for several weeks, at my request to help with the baby and get things straight. I thank God I have the mother in law i have, a wonderful woman whom I feel closer to than my own mother.
Intimacy has always been a problem in our relationship, she has a very low drive, often a side effect of the anti depressants and depression. She has also had hormone problems, IE, her cycle will last for weeks. We had a heck of a time getting pregnant and keeping the child.
We then had a second born, unexpected but not unwanted, we got pregnant the first time we did it after the first was born 8 month later(February of 2013). We were the .01% that birth control failed. After that we had not been intimate until this last summer, she would assist me but nothing else, she grew more depressed and I grew agitated.We went to counseling with our pastor, and I go to see him on my own often, he has really become a mentor for me. As things progressed they seemed to be getting worse, over Christmas week I was ready to through in the towel
My wife has a very short fuse, often flying off the handle for seemingly minor things, she has been violent, hit me with a car, slaps me, threatens me with all kind of terrible things, tells the children she hates them (lucky they are only 1 and 2) , etc. Then doesn't remember doing these things. I, in my heart now this is not her but an illness, and have treated it as such. And tried to do what I can to get her help, leaving and taking the kids is not an option, do to the femi-Nazi, who runs the Family services here, the kids would be with her alone with out me around. She has never been violet with the kids but they don't need to be yelled at.
I vowed to care for her in sickness and health, and see this no different than if she had diabetes. But going at this alone has been a challenge.
Normally when her folks visit, she is happy and calm, this past week she showed them the "dark" side, and with help from her mom we were able to convince her to get help, we got her to the family Dr, Monday the 29th and he was able to get her to a psychiatrist immediately(Wednesday the 31st). We were to the point of intervention, the psychiatrist is trying to control the depression and anxiety, and OCD, things in her mind have to be perfect. but has not ruled out bi-polar as of yet. They changed her meds, and put her on Xanax, twice a day until she is off the old med and fully on the new stuff.
What a difference, Normally she is so high strung we are up at 6 and I go to bed around midnight finishing chores to keep her from getting angry, she would go to bed around 9. so far, since that first xanax dose two days ago I haven't been yelled at, this is the longest stretch since before children. As i said intimacy has always been and issue, Thursday morning she, was in the mood, and calm, then she made the family breakfast, and we did nothing unnecessary, she worked on a little arts and crafts project, something she hasn't done in years, and I played with the boys, we all went to lunch. It was like what I thought having a family should be like. I'm not letting my guard down yet, but she texted me after I left for work telling me she loved me and thanked me for getting her the help, she has never texted me "I love you"
Thanks for listing and please keep me in your prayers,
MT
My wife of 7 years and I have been struggling for a while now. She was diagnosed with depression almost 20 years ago, and I knew this going in to our marriage.
After our first child was born the post-pardom depression got really bad, suicidal bad. Her mother, stayed with us for several weeks, at my request to help with the baby and get things straight. I thank God I have the mother in law i have, a wonderful woman whom I feel closer to than my own mother.
Intimacy has always been a problem in our relationship, she has a very low drive, often a side effect of the anti depressants and depression. She has also had hormone problems, IE, her cycle will last for weeks. We had a heck of a time getting pregnant and keeping the child.
We then had a second born, unexpected but not unwanted, we got pregnant the first time we did it after the first was born 8 month later(February of 2013). We were the .01% that birth control failed. After that we had not been intimate until this last summer, she would assist me but nothing else, she grew more depressed and I grew agitated.We went to counseling with our pastor, and I go to see him on my own often, he has really become a mentor for me. As things progressed they seemed to be getting worse, over Christmas week I was ready to through in the towel
My wife has a very short fuse, often flying off the handle for seemingly minor things, she has been violent, hit me with a car, slaps me, threatens me with all kind of terrible things, tells the children she hates them (lucky they are only 1 and 2) , etc. Then doesn't remember doing these things. I, in my heart now this is not her but an illness, and have treated it as such. And tried to do what I can to get her help, leaving and taking the kids is not an option, do to the femi-Nazi, who runs the Family services here, the kids would be with her alone with out me around. She has never been violet with the kids but they don't need to be yelled at.
I vowed to care for her in sickness and health, and see this no different than if she had diabetes. But going at this alone has been a challenge.
Normally when her folks visit, she is happy and calm, this past week she showed them the "dark" side, and with help from her mom we were able to convince her to get help, we got her to the family Dr, Monday the 29th and he was able to get her to a psychiatrist immediately(Wednesday the 31st). We were to the point of intervention, the psychiatrist is trying to control the depression and anxiety, and OCD, things in her mind have to be perfect. but has not ruled out bi-polar as of yet. They changed her meds, and put her on Xanax, twice a day until she is off the old med and fully on the new stuff.
What a difference, Normally she is so high strung we are up at 6 and I go to bed around midnight finishing chores to keep her from getting angry, she would go to bed around 9. so far, since that first xanax dose two days ago I haven't been yelled at, this is the longest stretch since before children. As i said intimacy has always been and issue, Thursday morning she, was in the mood, and calm, then she made the family breakfast, and we did nothing unnecessary, she worked on a little arts and crafts project, something she hasn't done in years, and I played with the boys, we all went to lunch. It was like what I thought having a family should be like. I'm not letting my guard down yet, but she texted me after I left for work telling me she loved me and thanked me for getting her the help, she has never texted me "I love you"
Thanks for listing and please keep me in your prayers,
MT