OK, starting when I was very small my mom had alot of meds, and I did not like the cuboard so full, it genuinely scared me, I know if it is a medication, you would not have a ton of them and have them not work, you should have like two meds, right, if you are really hurting...
So I stayed away from and was very scared of them. When I was 16, I needed them, but I took them like you take crack or heroin, I did not expect a help from them. And then would like, take my moms pills, till one day I took the wrong one and would not touch them now , curiosy does sometimes kill the cat, anyway.
Got schizophrenia, did not take meds the first year. But it got bad. To dellusional, so I took antiphycotics (type a), I hated them once again, but the dellusions went away, and I stayed on them though and I got very disterbed, they became bad for me. At that time, my phyciatrist told me about when he had just started in phyciatry, he said the old asylems you see in tvs were the real deal, now days with these meds, the disturbed.. can go home, these enable so much for them, he said you don't know what it used to be like, it was hell, these new meds opened doors, 'asylems' aren't even called asylems anymore, you find adolesencts in the wards, they come, and most go.
But I stayed on the antiphycotic, and they hurt me badly. I went off of all the meds once again. and ended up in the ward twice more. This time.. a mood stableizer helped me tremendously, but I was not ready to feel so normal. I took anti-depressants and zanex for when I horribly freaked out. And a sleeping pill.
Now I don't need the anti-deppressants, but I had to know when to go off of them like the anti-phycotics, they began to hurt me again, and this second time I went to the hospitol, I knew I couldn't come here (ward) anymore, the people there now scared me, they made me worse. I needed to get responsible for awful behavior. But when I was in there, I told the docters I was angrey, they were giving me meds I didn't need!!!! I told them what they were doing was serious, that they are doing something very wrong, but I did it kindly, I don't want them doing this to other people. The docter took me seriously, and apoligized, when I accepted she casually said unfortunately you are not these doctors only patients, they have a very large caseload.
I needed to be honest with my phyciatrist when I was having problems, just honest, cause these docters were not trying to kill me, they were neglectful, but so was I.. no more neglecting my health, and time to be honest when I have and issuse
...
now, Iam ready for the mood stableizer.
The meds helped, the antiphycotic took the wierd thoughts, the antideppressant got me out of a deep hole, and now I'am trying the mood stableizer.
this has kinda sucked, but I think others would benifit from what I've learned
So I stayed away from and was very scared of them. When I was 16, I needed them, but I took them like you take crack or heroin, I did not expect a help from them. And then would like, take my moms pills, till one day I took the wrong one and would not touch them now , curiosy does sometimes kill the cat, anyway.
Got schizophrenia, did not take meds the first year. But it got bad. To dellusional, so I took antiphycotics (type a), I hated them once again, but the dellusions went away, and I stayed on them though and I got very disterbed, they became bad for me. At that time, my phyciatrist told me about when he had just started in phyciatry, he said the old asylems you see in tvs were the real deal, now days with these meds, the disturbed.. can go home, these enable so much for them, he said you don't know what it used to be like, it was hell, these new meds opened doors, 'asylems' aren't even called asylems anymore, you find adolesencts in the wards, they come, and most go.
But I stayed on the antiphycotic, and they hurt me badly. I went off of all the meds once again. and ended up in the ward twice more. This time.. a mood stableizer helped me tremendously, but I was not ready to feel so normal. I took anti-depressants and zanex for when I horribly freaked out. And a sleeping pill.
Now I don't need the anti-deppressants, but I had to know when to go off of them like the anti-phycotics, they began to hurt me again, and this second time I went to the hospitol, I knew I couldn't come here (ward) anymore, the people there now scared me, they made me worse. I needed to get responsible for awful behavior. But when I was in there, I told the docters I was angrey, they were giving me meds I didn't need!!!! I told them what they were doing was serious, that they are doing something very wrong, but I did it kindly, I don't want them doing this to other people. The docter took me seriously, and apoligized, when I accepted she casually said unfortunately you are not these doctors only patients, they have a very large caseload.
I needed to be honest with my phyciatrist when I was having problems, just honest, cause these docters were not trying to kill me, they were neglectful, but so was I.. no more neglecting my health, and time to be honest when I have and issuse
...now, Iam ready for the mood stableizer.
The meds helped, the antiphycotic took the wierd thoughts, the antideppressant got me out of a deep hole, and now I'am trying the mood stableizer.
this has kinda sucked, but I think others would benifit from what I've learned
