First I want to say Hello to everyone,I am new here..so I hope I do this right.
Here is my problem...I have been married for 12 years and it has not been the easiest to say the least but we haev made it this far.I have always believed in God ever since I can remember but have not had a real close relationship with him until about 7 months ago.I found myself needed him more and more each day due to my struggling married life.
When we first got married I found out quickly that my husband was a very jealous and controlling man.He was some what abusive with me,from mental to emotional,to physical,physical not much.The emotional I would have to say hurt the worst.I prayed constantly for God to help in my marriage and it seemed to take years for him to take action but he did.Little did I know that I had built up a very strong wall against my husband for all the things he had put me through.I later discovered that when I realized I didn't have much desire for him to be near me anymore and just wanted to find someone new.
I found myself in this affair over a year ago now and it ended 7 or so months ago.I confessed it to my husband what I had done.I know had I not been praying for God to help me out of that affair my marriage would not have lasted.I was very miserable in my affair because I knew it was wrong but at the same time it felt good for someone to really act like they cared for me.The affair became an addiction for me that I could not end alone without God's help.Indeed his help came.I spoke the words to my husband without even realizing what I was saying.
The day I told my husband he had made a visit to our neighbors house and gave his life to the lord.
Since that day it has been really tough for him to truley forgive me,he brings it up constantly to me,saying really ugly things to me that really hurt.I fear resentment could take place if it continues this way.It's so strange how one minute he is fine and the next he is sooo very angry.I tell him all the time it's the enemy who is trying to ruin this marriage,you have to let it go and give it over to the Lord.I know he is hurting and I try so hard to show him how sorry I am but at times it feels like I am wasting my time.
Their is sooo much more I could tell you about but I know it's long enough now so I should go.I guess what I am looking for is one most important prayer and two some encouragement along with advice.I feel talking to others about this is what I need most.Thanks for listening and sorry so long.God Bless you All.
Here is my problem...I have been married for 12 years and it has not been the easiest to say the least but we haev made it this far.I have always believed in God ever since I can remember but have not had a real close relationship with him until about 7 months ago.I found myself needed him more and more each day due to my struggling married life.
When we first got married I found out quickly that my husband was a very jealous and controlling man.He was some what abusive with me,from mental to emotional,to physical,physical not much.The emotional I would have to say hurt the worst.I prayed constantly for God to help in my marriage and it seemed to take years for him to take action but he did.Little did I know that I had built up a very strong wall against my husband for all the things he had put me through.I later discovered that when I realized I didn't have much desire for him to be near me anymore and just wanted to find someone new.
I found myself in this affair over a year ago now and it ended 7 or so months ago.I confessed it to my husband what I had done.I know had I not been praying for God to help me out of that affair my marriage would not have lasted.I was very miserable in my affair because I knew it was wrong but at the same time it felt good for someone to really act like they cared for me.The affair became an addiction for me that I could not end alone without God's help.Indeed his help came.I spoke the words to my husband without even realizing what I was saying.
The day I told my husband he had made a visit to our neighbors house and gave his life to the lord.
Since that day it has been really tough for him to truley forgive me,he brings it up constantly to me,saying really ugly things to me that really hurt.I fear resentment could take place if it continues this way.It's so strange how one minute he is fine and the next he is sooo very angry.I tell him all the time it's the enemy who is trying to ruin this marriage,you have to let it go and give it over to the Lord.I know he is hurting and I try so hard to show him how sorry I am but at times it feels like I am wasting my time.
Their is sooo much more I could tell you about but I know it's long enough now so I should go.I guess what I am looking for is one most important prayer and two some encouragement along with advice.I feel talking to others about this is what I need most.Thanks for listening and sorry so long.God Bless you All.