adnan007
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One time in life I was very depressed. I used to cry every day. I used to get so sad while crying that I could hear my heart pounding. Then I started getting dizzy because of it. I got dizzy next day every time I cried two or three nights. I had no choice. I had to choose stop crying and cursing my life and me. There wasn’t any benefit for me crying and cursing.
I’m a disabled person. I have no training or education. I have no job. If I study and practice everyday, then I’ll be able to get a job and improve my life. But I get dishearten, choose wrong things, and waste time and energy in fantasies.
Most of children who went to school with me couldn’t complete the basic education. I was one of the bright students when I was in grade two. My friend hadn’t memorize the tables. You used to get beaten with sticks for things like that. I showed him that you can write table by adding numbers together. He learnt it and he was so happy that he was nonstop writing tables, checking tables, and showing it to me. A lot students were very weak in studies. With a little right help they could learn a lot. I’m a poor person. I leave in in a poor area. I fantasize that I have a lot of money and I have opened a free tuition centre for children in my area. We help children in homework and other problems.
I can see that it’s a very good thought and it can help a lot of children. But this fantasy hurts me. I don’t have money and there’s no I can help like this. In fact, I need help at this time. If I give more time to studying and practicing, I could help my family and some people. I’m sure. I must choose to think and do what is beneficial for me.
Yesterday it was my cousin’s mehndi ceremony. Everyone was outside. I didn’t go outside. There was a lot of guests and their children. A small girl came in and went back when she saw me. She brought another girl with her. They stood in door. She pointed at me and said ‘Look him’. And they ran back giggling and making noises. Then it happened few times with other children. One of the children called me names one time. I had no idea how to handle it but I was thinking that crying and cursing my life for few days will only worsen it. Before in incidents like this, I always cursed me and my life, but this time I haven’t done it. I think it’ll be beneficial for me to have some strategy for situation like this instead of cursing my life. I’ll be glad to have thinking like this
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I know two brothers. Both have physical and other problems. Both want to help their family. Older one don’t work and say’s his life has been ruined. Four years younger one goes to work and hasn’t said anything like this. One has to choose to think and do what is beneficial for them.
In my eyes, I am a loser. I’m 30 years old. I no education or job or money and I think I have lived most of my life. I don’t think I’ll live more than 40. I have club feet. My left leg is short because it broke many years ago and didn’t heal the right way. I can’t walk without someone’s help. My health is decreasing with each year. I’m not persistent. It hurts when I hear that my this friend is getting married or that friend is getting married but I can’t get married. But sometimes I still think I’m lucky because I still have a chance to improve. In my eyes, most of you have a lot. You have education, job, good health, and hope. I believe life will get better, if you think and do what is beneficial for you.
I’m a disabled person. I have no training or education. I have no job. If I study and practice everyday, then I’ll be able to get a job and improve my life. But I get dishearten, choose wrong things, and waste time and energy in fantasies.
Most of children who went to school with me couldn’t complete the basic education. I was one of the bright students when I was in grade two. My friend hadn’t memorize the tables. You used to get beaten with sticks for things like that. I showed him that you can write table by adding numbers together. He learnt it and he was so happy that he was nonstop writing tables, checking tables, and showing it to me. A lot students were very weak in studies. With a little right help they could learn a lot. I’m a poor person. I leave in in a poor area. I fantasize that I have a lot of money and I have opened a free tuition centre for children in my area. We help children in homework and other problems.
I can see that it’s a very good thought and it can help a lot of children. But this fantasy hurts me. I don’t have money and there’s no I can help like this. In fact, I need help at this time. If I give more time to studying and practicing, I could help my family and some people. I’m sure. I must choose to think and do what is beneficial for me.
Yesterday it was my cousin’s mehndi ceremony. Everyone was outside. I didn’t go outside. There was a lot of guests and their children. A small girl came in and went back when she saw me. She brought another girl with her. They stood in door. She pointed at me and said ‘Look him’. And they ran back giggling and making noises. Then it happened few times with other children. One of the children called me names one time. I had no idea how to handle it but I was thinking that crying and cursing my life for few days will only worsen it. Before in incidents like this, I always cursed me and my life, but this time I haven’t done it. I think it’ll be beneficial for me to have some strategy for situation like this instead of cursing my life. I’ll be glad to have thinking like this
I know two brothers. Both have physical and other problems. Both want to help their family. Older one don’t work and say’s his life has been ruined. Four years younger one goes to work and hasn’t said anything like this. One has to choose to think and do what is beneficial for them.
In my eyes, I am a loser. I’m 30 years old. I no education or job or money and I think I have lived most of my life. I don’t think I’ll live more than 40. I have club feet. My left leg is short because it broke many years ago and didn’t heal the right way. I can’t walk without someone’s help. My health is decreasing with each year. I’m not persistent. It hurts when I hear that my this friend is getting married or that friend is getting married but I can’t get married. But sometimes I still think I’m lucky because I still have a chance to improve. In my eyes, most of you have a lot. You have education, job, good health, and hope. I believe life will get better, if you think and do what is beneficial for you.
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