You're welcome, I feel it's only fair to reply to everyone and to acknowledge everyone's points, even if all the responses take a while so apologies if it takes a while for me to get back to you guys.
It's not a matter of rebelling against God or wanting life to be "fair". I was more protesting why God would have virgins be kept as war brides, or say slaves are property, or have people kill their fellow tribesmen for protesting what was going on.
Hm............... you got me!
You know, all those theologians give one million excuses for all these crazy stuff in OT and sometimes in NT. My personal answer, you know, I really not literalist. And I don't belive like Bible is inerrant perfect Book droped down on our heads from heaven directly from God, every word. It's silly , I think. My view people in my church don't like to hear, I'm like "white raven" we say in my language. Not fitting. Like, "hush hush you sinner".
But OK. So anyways. Crazy crazy laws. Like, I almost fell from my chair when I read, if two men fighting nacked with swords, and wife grabs by... shameful organ of husbant, then husband must draw sword and chop arm of wife immediately!!! Oh. My. God. Inerrant??? You JOKING?????????????????????????? Or like, take babilonian babys and crush their heads to rocks!!! Whaaat??!! You maaaad???!!! And other many-many craaaaaaaaaaaaaaaazy stuff.
Forget it! Joke! Impossible. Even translation in my language, I read interlinear Greek or Hebrew NT or OT, sounding little different in many places. So even if it was 100% truth truth (it's not), then translation already changing. I hear different from original meaning. Or much historical context lost... So we dont even get all of original meanings. Ancient antology of books!!!!!
I almost want to through away OT. But cant - Jesus said, it's good if you read it right - with right understanding, meaning, get some ideas but have brains for change!!!! Like he said to Farises "you have big zeal for God, but not according to understanding". Like he said - you guys read OT but you understand zero. You just blindly following it. He said you guys are snakes. Harsh!!!!!!! I don't want be snake or blind or not understanding foolish guy. No. I want like Jesus explained. I believe in Jesus.
I'm Christian, not OldTestamentian or NewTestamentian or Bibleian. No worshiping idols, God commanded. Sooo, Bible can be idol? No. Only God himself!!! Only Jesus Christ my Lord!!! Worship some random writings of humans? Idolatry
So in spite of craaaaazy stuff, Bible does contain some seed of truth!!! Like door, like direction, like some general idea, like little suggestion. Food for thought . Not 100% God's word!! No-no-no.
Not like - hey, each word is true, and each word is law, and each word is you have to listen, believe, and obey. No-no-no. Nobody's doing it. Nobody. So, take off your hypocritous masks! No Judaist, no Christian ever ever accept and believe and teach and obey ALL of OT or Bible - they peek and choose. Cut-and-paste, patchwork religion. No matter what they say. Let's be honest. God seeing all hearts. No need to lie, or pretend, or to play games.
Even so, think of it this way: if you were a scientist who created sentient beings who have wills of their own, would you pit some against others, or tell some to kill the others, or strike some with an illness, with your only justification being "because"? How would virgins being kept as war brides or the like be considered "fair"?
Again, much of it is fantasy fantasy. No. God not doing crazy stuff like that. Really. Gotta have understanding. Gotta have eyes. Gotta have brains. Like Jesus advized.
BUT what God is really doing, according to Jesus and much of OT and NT, if looking in allegory or looking as general history or looking at relationships with prophets and looking at general ideas. Then it's clear - God not sadist. God not crazy illogical guy doing all sorts of strange weird stuff and not telling people do it. General idea, God loves people. God wants people understand deep truth. Murcy, love, compassion, acceptance. Jesus teaching!!!
Religion teachis extra crazy stuff - please don't listen. Jesus said, kids of snakes blind murderers. Jesus said, rather then teaching all that crazy nonesense you religious twisters of God's truth why not put heavy rock on your neck and jump inside river??? Harsh!!! But true.
Jesus said, very very few reeeaaaly get it. Majority just march on this wide road thru wide gates of being confused in their own mistakes mistakes mistakes... Not from God