I am on Risperdal for my bipolar mania, and I hate it. The dose I need leaves me tired all day. About a month ago, I found I am anemic and need IV iron infusions. Too tired to do anything without the Risperdal, completely useless on it. My grandkids have been in town for the past month, and I could not sleep through my time with them, so I started cutting back my dose, and now I am off it for three days.
I am not functioning well at all, and I dread seeing my therapist on Thursday. I am engaging in behavior that could get me committed, and I really do not want to stop. I am addicted to it.
I hate being bipolar and needing that darn med.
Trish
Hey Trish you know what I found?
I found that when I was on anti-psychotic drugs, like you are then when I got tired from it all the time then I knew I was using too much.
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Also Trish and in particular please don't go hard on yourself about your addiction, rather begin to forgive yourself - your inability to do it right - and learn to say thanks to Jesus for giving you grace especially when you fail Him and you find yourself back at it.
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She please don't be too hard on yourself Trish, Jesus died for us sinners and His flesh and blood will do what you cannot do - please - let our heavenly Father be your God and take care of you - sick, weak, depressed, addicted - whatever state you are in - He will look after you, if you trust Him to forgive you your sins and you do the same for yourself and for all those others who need forgiveness of sins.
I found that after I surrendered my addictions to Him, and stopped trying to control it myself, He looked after me far better than I ever did.
True all the bad life that had been there, did attack at first, but in faith such crap went away soon enough - like the darkness of addiction went away when I openly lived in The Light of Day.
For the greed, burning needs, shame, guilt, fear, weakness, lack of self-control and such like things left soon afterwards, and I praise and thank God for His unbelievable love over me every day, and the freedom brought me to feed from the goodness He has Created without having to be wrong in any way.
Such a freedom Jesus has for you as well - just give your inability to Him when you are in it - and He will teach you how grace sets you free from addictive substances all together.
For enjoying God's Created good is not wrong in itself, but can be done wrongly and then His Goodness burns us badly. Jesus can teach you how to do it right and then you can have His rest and peace when it comes this this.
Much love your way
